I am so very anxious.

It's been three weeks since I submitted my thesis, and I should find out how I did within the next week. And I want to do good, but I also don't want to be disappointed. What is the proper way to manage one's expectations?

Besides that, I need to find a job that I can be passionate about. I mean, doing statistical analysis about the effectiveness of advertising campaigns two days a week is fine and my colleagues are wonderful... but I want to make the world a better place. How do I do that? Is there a job for which I am qualified that will allow me to do that and pay me enough to make a living?

Then, some time at the end of next month, my building will be demolished and I will need to find a new place to live. But the non-student housing market in Amsterdam is so expensive and confusing and what's up with people posting fake listings?

So, there's a lot of pressure to get my bits and pieces together, and it's freaking me out.

Being an adult is hard.

Being an adult thousands of miles away from my family is even harder, I think.

Sometimes, I worry that I am subconsciously sabotaging myself. Like, come on, Sue-Anne. You can do this. It's okay. You will not waste your life away.

This post was brought to you by my messy thought process.