Feeling: Reminiscent
Listening to: Whispers (I Hear You) by All That Remains
School's been stealing most of my time. And sleep, but let's just blame school 'cause we all know school's more evil than sleep.
I'm supposed to be doing work. So, off I go, like a good girl. To save the world; not do work - that's for losers. Work's for losers. And I'm not a loser. :D No sirree; not me.
And "Listening To Freddy Mercury" by Emery has the sexiest screams. Like woah-I'm-going-to-have-to-rape-Emery-after-listening-to-this kind of sexy. Yep. Very sexy.
PS: I went to the prayer thing for that something I spoke of in my last post, and the atmosphere at the house was so depressingly solemn. The first thing I was greeted by was my sister's husband screaming (if you didn't know, it was his brother and he was very upset), and then a baby that'd just finished crying, followed by more saddening things, like seeing his father slumped in a chair in the kitchen, smoking and looking so lost and uncertain of everything around him. It made me feel selfish.
Sunday 19 August 2007
Car Accident Takes 2 Lives
I may be overreacting, but it's the first time something like this has happened to someone I knew, so excuse me if you think this is getting annoying. I don't really know how to act, but I'll smile for now if that'll make you feel better. :]
He was a nice boy, who got a little caught up with the idea of growing up, as we do.
Okay, that sentence doesn't make sense. I was trying to be wise and inspirational. Might not be my thing.
Rest in peace, dear brother.
I may be overreacting, but it's the first time something like this has happened to someone I knew, so excuse me if you think this is getting annoying. I don't really know how to act, but I'll smile for now if that'll make you feel better. :]
He was a nice boy, who got a little caught up with the idea of growing up, as we do.
Okay, that sentence doesn't make sense. I was trying to be wise and inspirational. Might not be my thing.
Rest in peace, dear brother.
Saturday 18 August 2007
Feeling: Disconnected
Listening to: Playing With Fire (Acoustic) by Emery
I don't know the full story, but I'm guessing the bottom line sounds something like, "Don't drink and drive."
Death is a horrible thing. But for some reason, it's different when it's someone you know as opposed to someone you don't know personally.
Why?
It's hard when you're sitting there worrying about school, trying to finish as much work as you can 'cause frankly, it's a nuisance having it around, at 2AM, and your mum comes out of her room to tell you your friend has just passed away. You start to feel guilty you ever worried so much about something as stupid as school; it even starts to seem insignificant as it blurs into the back of your mind for that little while. Your eyes water and you realize you can't deal with this now. Not now. Not while you have other things to worry about.
It's frustrating.
When did you become the one without regret?
And he was only 16. :[
♥♥♥♥
Listening to: Playing With Fire (Acoustic) by Emery
I don't know the full story, but I'm guessing the bottom line sounds something like, "Don't drink and drive."
Death is a horrible thing. But for some reason, it's different when it's someone you know as opposed to someone you don't know personally.
Why?
It's hard when you're sitting there worrying about school, trying to finish as much work as you can 'cause frankly, it's a nuisance having it around, at 2AM, and your mum comes out of her room to tell you your friend has just passed away. You start to feel guilty you ever worried so much about something as stupid as school; it even starts to seem insignificant as it blurs into the back of your mind for that little while. Your eyes water and you realize you can't deal with this now. Not now. Not while you have other things to worry about.
It's frustrating.
When did you become the one without regret?
And he was only 16. :[
♥♥♥♥
Tuesday 14 August 2007
Feeling: Out of breath
Listening to: Red And Dying Evening by Alesana
A cockroach this big just jumped on my laptop screen. I screamed, then I seemed to remember an ad that made bugs appear to be crawling on the screen, so I assumed this was an ad as well, so I said out loud (Yes, I talk to myself when I feel horrified), "Whoa, I thought it was real." I then tilted my head to the right a little and took a closer look, and the nasty thing jumped off the screen, which of course made me jump out of my chair and say "Oh, shit. It is real!" Then, I stood there staring at it for a while. I think this was the moment we fell in love for a second or two. It was short-lived 'cause the next thing I knew I had bugspray in my hands. I sprayed it, but it flew and it jumped and it got lost in my many colour pencils, so now I don't know where it is. :D
Yeah, I just needed to let the internet know because the adrenalin was pumping and I thought, "I am so cool." Then, remembered who I was and realized that no, I'm not. Hahahah.
Listening to: Red And Dying Evening by Alesana
A cockroach this big just jumped on my laptop screen. I screamed, then I seemed to remember an ad that made bugs appear to be crawling on the screen, so I assumed this was an ad as well, so I said out loud (Yes, I talk to myself when I feel horrified), "Whoa, I thought it was real." I then tilted my head to the right a little and took a closer look, and the nasty thing jumped off the screen, which of course made me jump out of my chair and say "Oh, shit. It is real!" Then, I stood there staring at it for a while. I think this was the moment we fell in love for a second or two. It was short-lived 'cause the next thing I knew I had bugspray in my hands. I sprayed it, but it flew and it jumped and it got lost in my many colour pencils, so now I don't know where it is. :D
Yeah, I just needed to let the internet know because the adrenalin was pumping and I thought, "I am so cool." Then, remembered who I was and realized that no, I'm not. Hahahah.
Feeling: Thirsty
Listening to: Between Silence And Solitude by All That Remains
Regarding something I said in my previous post, guess who was on the front page of Saturday's Borneo Bulletin? My sister! Well, I mean, there was an article about her and the trip to Miri.
But enough of her, let's get back to conceited little ol' me.
Flyleaf's getting pretty big now. I just watched Die Hard 4, so I just found out I'm So Sick was in it, and they were also on MTV's Amplified the other day, and you know what happens to bands when they go on MTV...
They take over the world!
Listening to: Between Silence And Solitude by All That Remains
Regarding something I said in my previous post, guess who was on the front page of Saturday's Borneo Bulletin? My sister! Well, I mean, there was an article about her and the trip to Miri.
But enough of her, let's get back to conceited little ol' me.
Flyleaf's getting pretty big now. I just watched Die Hard 4, so I just found out I'm So Sick was in it, and they were also on MTV's Amplified the other day, and you know what happens to bands when they go on MTV...
They take over the world!
Friday 10 August 2007
Feeling: Incomplete
Listening to: Dear Tragedy by Bayside
I guess I'm pretty slow to not have known anything about this, but for those who are even slower, on the 7th, Embracing Beyond was released on Kristal FM for the first time. It's a collaboration between some members of Airholes, Wan Long Kok, Incisive, Senjakala, Not Famous and I Mean The Snakes, and... well, let's let the music speak for itself.
I've also got baby duty this weekend, 'cause my sister went to this mass wedding thing in Miri, and I'm guessing my mum liked the idea of staying up all night tending to a tiny crying milk-drinker that keeps farting (and is actually very cute, but that's only because she gets cuter every time I see her). So, hey, I might be up to watch Pepper Ann at 5AM.
Dear Tragedy, I never had anybody, but being alone wasn't half as bad as being obsessed with a breath-taker; a smile-faker. These years alone have eaten me alive.
Does anyone else's life seem to have no meaning and/or direction?
Hmm. Just me then?
Listening to: Dear Tragedy by Bayside
I guess I'm pretty slow to not have known anything about this, but for those who are even slower, on the 7th, Embracing Beyond was released on Kristal FM for the first time. It's a collaboration between some members of Airholes, Wan Long Kok, Incisive, Senjakala, Not Famous and I Mean The Snakes, and... well, let's let the music speak for itself.
I've also got baby duty this weekend, 'cause my sister went to this mass wedding thing in Miri, and I'm guessing my mum liked the idea of staying up all night tending to a tiny crying milk-drinker that keeps farting (and is actually very cute, but that's only because she gets cuter every time I see her). So, hey, I might be up to watch Pepper Ann at 5AM.
Dear Tragedy, I never had anybody, but being alone wasn't half as bad as being obsessed with a breath-taker; a smile-faker. These years alone have eaten me alive.
Does anyone else's life seem to have no meaning and/or direction?
Hmm. Just me then?
Monday 6 August 2007
Feeling: Wide-Eyed
Baybeats was awesome. All three days had wonderful bands playing, and I loved every minute of it. I can't wait for Singfest; 10 hours of amazing music!
I mean, that's what I would be saying if my dreams of going to Singapore hadn't been crushed, but seeing as they did unfortunately become impossible, despite the fact that Baybeats so wanted me to be there, I shall say this instead:
Oogity boogity.
And if you didn't notice, I'm so not in a state of utter denial and frustration about anything at all.
I somehow feel as if I had something terribly important to get off my chest, but I seem to have already pushed it to the back of my head, never to be thought of again until a trigger is pulled and it resurfaces. So, good night. I'm going to go lie down on my bed, crawl under the covers and stare at the ceiling while imagining horrible things. You know how it is when you need to sleep but you just don't want to. ;]
Baybeats was awesome. All three days had wonderful bands playing, and I loved every minute of it. I can't wait for Singfest; 10 hours of amazing music!
I mean, that's what I would be saying if my dreams of going to Singapore hadn't been crushed, but seeing as they did unfortunately become impossible, despite the fact that Baybeats so wanted me to be there, I shall say this instead:
Oogity boogity.
And if you didn't notice, I'm so not in a state of utter denial and frustration about anything at all.
I somehow feel as if I had something terribly important to get off my chest, but I seem to have already pushed it to the back of my head, never to be thought of again until a trigger is pulled and it resurfaces. So, good night. I'm going to go lie down on my bed, crawl under the covers and stare at the ceiling while imagining horrible things. You know how it is when you need to sleep but you just don't want to. ;]
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