I have many questions, but lately, I haven't been expressing them publicly because these are the kind of thoughts that will make people frown at you in disgust. They have a lot to do with horrible things happening that many of us desperately want to get rid of and the ineffective way in which they are being dealt with today, because it seems that rather than fixing all of these many, many fuck-ups, we deal with them after the fact. But why don't we prevent these things from occurring before there is even a need to cure it? It is completely possible.

So, I think it's time I invite others to ask these questions as well. And I think thinking is an important part of growing up and knowing yourself and being the best kind of human being you can be. And any society that limits the kind of thinking you can do is bound to be problematic.

Do you want to be the closest-to-perfection-possible version of yourself? Or are you too afraid to merely imagine it for fear of failure and being left with only hope?

Doesn't the world just make you so darn angry sometimes? Why the hell don't we do anything about it?

Feeling: Cranky

I have a coach to catch in about 5 hours, which means I have to start walking in 4 hours, which means I need to eat and shower in 3 hours, which means I have less than 2 hours to pack my bag if I want to sneak in an hour of sleep.

Yet somehow, in spite of my lack of time, I have decided to use some of it to come say hi to my adoring fans - because I love you guys so, so, so, so much!

Just kidding. I don't have fans, much less ones that adore me. I'm only here because packing is kind of boring and I'm getting sleepy. *Yawns.

Just kidding. Of course I have fans, and if they were to have any kind of emotion towards me, it would definitely be adoration! And picking appropriate items for travel and putting them in a carry-able bag is fun!

Just kidding.

But maybe I'm not.

Who really knows anymore? I'm just so darn mysterious. WooOoooOOo~

Feeling: Itchy
Listening to: Grey Matter by Finch

Man. I want to write an amazing entry that will justify why I have disappeared for two whole months without a word, but there really isn't anything amazing about it. I had lots of school work to do, and I was focussing on that. And you know what happens when I concentrate on doing what I'm supposed to - I mess up my sleeping schedule more times than I can keep track of, randomly decide 4 o'clock in the morning is a great time to cut off 2 inches of my hair, spontaneously buy tickets to Philadelphia for a few days later (I loved this decision, and my last day there was amazing ♥), and just general going-crazy-ness.

But that's over now. It's been over for 11 days, and now, I guess I am free of the responsibilities of a Cardiff University student (except for graduation which is in 42 days!). I can mess up my sleeping schedule all I like and buy more last minute tickets - without having to think about essays and studying and assignments! Excellent!

I will miss my Horror, Fantasy and the Media class though. *Wipes tear.

P.S. Did you notice I published some old drafts? ;] Have fun finding them.
P.P.S. Hint: They were written in March.