Mentality: Absent
Reading: Zole

Hey. What's cooking?

I've been gone for ages. HAHAHA. Did you actually miss me? Groovy.

Guess who's turning 15 on Sunday, the 3rd? Not me, that's who. :) Really, not me.

I'm drinking coke now. And I just finished a regular meatlovers pizza from Pizza Hut. Wow. I like em pizzas.

Oh yeh, I almost forgot. Last night at 7:30PM was my piano recital. I was all dressed in black, with boots and a skirt and everything. Hehe. I looked cool, God damn it. And I was nervous. And my speech was weird. Heh heh heh. I could here my teacher giggling in the background. Not surprising though, since everytime I said the speech during practice, he'd giggle too. And be like 'Is that your real speech?' Maybe my speech was funny. :)

It was Tedd's birthday yesterday. Remember him? Yep, okay. :) He is a.k.a Sunshine.

One last thing before I go to the bathroom to excrete faeces. Actually, two more things.

First, Minnie, you're my superhero. You're my star, you're my best friend. You're better than spiderman. Better than superman. Better than batman. Better than anyone. ;) Yeh. Minnie, is my twinny. There you go.

Second, Minnie's handwriting is cute, his laugh is cute too, so cute it kills me. Kelvin is also cute, he touched my hand today. HAHA. Prince is cute too. And Mikey Way will always be cute. Woo, yeah. Oh, and there's a kid in Form 1, he's cute. And one of the guys who sang last night at the recital was, not cute, but handsome. :) Seriuosly.

Feeling: Gross
Listening to: Bruises by Sugarcult

Band of the moment: Sugarcult, baby. :) I can tell that I'm falling in love with you, the bruises prove it's real.

On a bigger note, I've changed the layout! Yay. And only after changing it did I realize that it had the old URL for Broken Smile. Oh, well. Now this version is white. Which is different, cause the past layouts I've had were all dark. It's got two of my sad clowns there, so that makes it extra special. Haha. Why green? I don't know. That's the way it is.

My twin is a wormmmm. That is all.

Today is Friday. Tomorrow is Saturday. I was SUPPOSED to go to KK tomorrow. But but but. Those hopes have been shattered knowing that my mum said no one wanted to go and that she had something to do that night anyway. And I was all in the mood and everything! SDFOWIEMMVD. It's so sad. Then then then she said maybe later in the week. But if we do go later in the week, I hope I don't miss what's coming in 4 days. Hehehehe. (Hint: My twin + Jasmine's birthday)

Okay. Tuition last night was cool. Hehe. Kevin was all kind of weird, weirder than usual. And his whole bag was full of Magic Ring chips, the ones that come in the little blue packet with a picture of a thing in a Mickey Mouse outfit. Yeh. He gave me 7 packets of them, and I was trying to finish them as fast as I could. Hahaha. Then he asked if I wanted to eat, and I did, so I had to be honest(Ngahahaha). Sooo, we went to Mamih again. :) He's nice. And him and Charles were going crazy because Cikgu Saiful said "susu."

I think that's all for now. Enjoy the new layout. Ooh, as it says, it features the lyrics from the Ponytail Parade by Emery. Yes! I managed to fit all their beautiful lyrics on it! And I shall leave you now in a ball of wonder.

Oh, wait. I have to link this for giving me the image space for the layout. :) It's cool, dood.

Mentality: Bruised
Listening to: From Start To Finish by Senses Fail

You must be wondering what this Mentality thing is. It's an alternative for Feeling. Mentality just sounds better, I suppose.

I've had a busy week. Yes, sir, I have. Starting from the beginning of the holidays. Feels cool to be so booked. :)

Friday was that Charades Tournament. For those who took part, I know it was very unfair, I didn't make up the rules so don't come bashing me up. I asked for a rematch for the whole round one, but I didn't get a reply. I'm sorry. I tried. HAHA. Okay. Yes, that was that. And after the tournament, me and Far ran out cause they started saying "Okay, all those involved, help clean up the place." And... you know. After that, the nurse took us good little First Aiders to lunch at Pizza Hut and also a walk around Yayasan. I asked Ah Zhen to walk with me, cause he's so cool. Haha. And people said we look good together. I think it was cause our clothes matched.

The people we went with mixed coke with chilli and tomato sauce and salt and pepper and dared Ah Zhen to drink the whole glass. He did it and the nurse gave him $10. Cool. After that, his nose started bleeding. Then me and Far were thinking of other things to put in it to make it more gross(it's not like we were actually gonna make someone drink it). We thought of boogies and having everyone spit in the cup. And oh! Period blood. That'd be gross. Okay.

So, that was Friday. Saturday I had this class thing at the beach. It was okay. I got to see nipples. :) That was a plus. Nipples is always good. Haha. I have an obsession. But nipples wasn't the only reason it was okay. It was also okay because I got to know my classmates better. And when Kunchai came to pick me up, everyone was like 'Who is that?!' and all giggling and they asked him to take off his sunglasses and they all went 'wooo'. And I was laughing. :) Heeee. Crazy teenage girls.

After that beach thingie I had a piano thingie, where I became aquainted with a girl I always thought was cool. She goes to JIS and she plays Claudine, a song I'm in love with. So, it was cool, we talked a bit. THENNN.. AFTER THAT. I went out with Prince to Jerudong. I would have met my twin there too, but I didn't because... he didn't want to come out from hiding.

Sunday, I went to Kunchai(he's my sister's bf)'s sister's wedding thingie. Free foood. And there was a guy there, Kunchai's cousin, who so very much reminded me of my twin because he was all girly and stuff. :) Awesome. We took pictures. I was in a baju kurung. I'm still not very sure of how you spell that. I wore slippers. With my baju kurung. HEHEHE. I suck. Okay. You will never see those pictures, by the way.

Then, I went to the beach. Again. With Prince. We caught those little crabs that crawl around in the sand. It was funny. Cause I started it by chasing one of them and not wanting to pick if up for fear of being pinched. We put two of 'em in a glass bottle. I wanted it to eat this spikey thing that fell from a tree, but I don't think it wanted to. Then we threw the bottle to sea. And I wondered how to crabs felt. Spinning around in the air like that.

Monday. Oh, Monday was beautiful. I watched Madagascar with my twin who I missed very much and was pissed at cause he didn't want to see me on Saturday. But it was okay. That Melman girraffe in the movie is so much like him with the stuttering and everything. And as I could have predicted, he got that 'I like to move it, move it' stuck in his throat.

Tuesday, I was fucked. I mean, not literally fucked. But you know, in deep shit. Because of something that would get someone in deep shit. And in addition to that, the unthinkable happened! My twin got his period! And I was all scared and worried and kind of angry and sad.

Today, I had a little crisis just now. I had no transport to go to my piano, but now it's okay. And also, I was talking very deeply about suicide. About driving a screwdriver through my head, and having people find me in a pool of blood in my room. I wanted to check on my state of existance. I don't really want to die. I just want to see if people care. There you go.

I'm not crazy. Nor am I suicidal. I wanted to wake someone up.

And now I gotta go get ready. I am sooooo moodless. Groovy. This entry was a mess of words clustered together to form multiple sentences. And I'll change this stupid layout soon. I got in the mood. Wooo.

Feeling: Delirious
Listening to: Homesick At Space Camp by Fall Out Boy

HOLIDAYSSSSS are coming up. One of those short lameass 10-day ones though. And also, the Charades Tournament (it was originally called the 'Charades Competition', but I suggested we use 'tournament' cause it sounds professional) is coming up, this Friday. And we get early holidays (Thursday's the last day) since Saturday is Parents' Day and students don't need to do a thing. :) Relaxation, baby, I'm relying on you.

We had a whole mix up and stupidness with the Charades Tournament though. But I suppose it's all sorted out now. Or nearly sorted out. Either one.

Anyway, back to the part where I'm actually living my life. I walked around bandar today with Jas and Far... looking for balls. HAHAHAHAHA. Okay. I couldn't control myself, they kept saying 'balls' in every frickin' sentence. "Do you think he has a ball?" "Where can we find some balls?" "We need a ball." They were like this non-stop until I exploded and said "Will you stop saying 'balls'!". Cause I was thinking dirty and it bothered me.

I just typed a long something on education which doesn't really make sense because all I was doing was rambling at Rant-filled empty box.

My life has pretty much stopped right now. Let me get back to you once all the action has come back. Beep. Over and out. *gussh gusssh*

Mentality: Tired

I'm hating Friendster right now. Well, Friendster blogs anyway. It takes so long to load. :( And I've had a lot to rant about recently, but I can never get it to open. Stupid cow.

I don't like having a short fringe. I liked it better when it was up to my nose. :( I used to be able to cover my eyes. Now it's not nice. I have a short fringe? That means I cut my hair. Peeeyoo.

I bought new pants the other day. And a new t-shirt. It's an Emily t-shirt, and I think I only bought it cause it was cheap. B$8.80. And they sell it for US$20 on ebay, and B$14 at Route 66(that shop at the Mall). So, yes, I like bargains. The shirt's black and it says "Bad kitten club" with pictures of black cats. The pants are real cool though, that's why I'm in love with them. But these pants, however, were not cheap. Hehe. Maybe even expensive. But they were pretty.

I haven't gotten UNauthentic back up yet, sorry.

Meh. I had a headache just now. I'm very irritable right now. I hate the sound of slippers/any kind of shoes being dragged on the ground. You know, the style Bruneians walk in. It's just very fucking annoying. I kept hearing it when we were walking on the boards at that RBAF fair thing in Tutong on Tuesday.

Oh yeh, so I went to Tutong town, at last. You probably know what it was for. After the RBAF thing, we(I'm too buggered to tell you who) just hung around Tutong. Meh. The change of atmosphere was refreshing.

Mid-Year exam results: English: 84%. Malay: 47%. Physics: 67%. Chemistry: 66%. Biology: 53%. Accounts: 83%. Add Maths: 35%. Maths (D): 81%. And the rest isn't important.

By the way, I like sajaks. :) I can understand them, so that helps in my Malay paper 2. That's cool, cause it's kefahaman and if I can understand it, I can do that.

I'm going now. I have no mood to type anything else that would even be of little value to you. But first, did you read the May 29th's Borneo Bulletin? That was last Sunday's. Did you flip to page 24 and read at the top "Compiled and edited by Shue Pwuey(it's misspelt, so it's supposed to be Rwuey) and Sue-Anne Coventry of Chung Hwa Middle School, BSB"? Did you look at the right corner of the page and see a little box headlined "Jap Horror Flick So Scarey, It'll Make You Laugh"? Well, if you did, that was mine, as you would know if you looked below the headline and saw "By Sue-Anne Coventry". HAHAHA. They didn't cut it, they cut Shue Rwuey's story cause it didn't fit. Okay then. That's all. That was my movie review for 'Infection'. Good night.