Tuesday 27 June 2006

Feeling: Fidgety
Listening to: Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional

Look, look! I'm listening to Dashboard Confessional. Scene points?

Saturday night was awesome. There was a drum concert at Jerudong Park where some local bands performed, too; some of whom sucked badly, and some of whom were actually pretty good. Okay, come to think of it, maybe only one band was good. I didn't really enjoy the music the other bands played. :D And what band am I talking about? You will never know. MUAHAHAHA. Your curiousity will kill you. I guess you can tell by the way I phrased my words, but if you don't (and I don't know why you wouldn't), then let me tell you. YES, I went to that conert, and my best friends for the evening were Drummy and the cowy goodness. :] We played bumper cars and I had a sprained wrist for a day because of that, but it's okay, 'cause everybody knows Saturday night was awesome. And this random guy walked passed me and you know what he did? He sniffed me. And if you ask me, it was extremely strange. It's just not normal to go around sniffing people.

I went to a Mini Medicine School on Sunday at UBD. Why, I'm not so sure. Oh, yes, because my best friend made me go, and I agreed because, well, free food. No further explanation needed.

Hamish is back in Brunei, so my street isn't so quiet anymore. :] That's good. The bad thing is that school is back, holidays are over, and I'm that much closer to exams. Oh, and I'm getting old and cranky.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me. So, won't you kill me? So, I die happy.

And you know what, I hate this change; I'm sorry. And no one will understand that but me and possibly someone else. Hoho. :]

Tuesday 20 June 2006

Feeling: Annoyed
Listening to: Hands In The Sky (Big Shot) by Straylight Run

I have a blood-sucking virus on the computer. Eats up my MSN. I have apparently deleted it, but you know viruses: so sneaky and sly.

This song makes me feel like I'm in a dream. In a place where I either died, or never existed. It's awesome.

Living lives just like deer in headlights; terrified, blind, and wait to die.

A few days ago, my grandmother was standing suspiciously on the side of the road, and when my aunt asked her where she wanted to go, she answered with a "Nowhere." Okay, so you're wondering what she was doing on the side of the road. Well, so was my aunt. To quench her curiousity, she asked my grandmother, to which she replied "I'm waiting for my husband." Normally, there would be nothing wrong with that, and it would be at least understandable. The problem with her answer in this particular situation was the fact that my grandfather died a few years before I was born.

Some days, my grandmother just stays in her room, where all of the missing things of the house always manage to end up, doing God knows what. Other days, she takes the slow process of unlocking her bedroom door, coming onto the other side of the door, locking it up again, walking around the house, checking the doors to see if they're locked, looking out windows, occassionally stopping to stare at people, which I bet creeps them out, turning off lights and switches, sitting in the kitchen, and whispering to herself.

That day was one of the days she didn't choose to be in her room, as is today. This morning, she went around to the flower nursery at the back of the house, and harrassed the boys who work for my aunt(we do, officially, call them 'the boys', and I will refer to them as that hereafter). I mean this literally. She harrassed them. Asking homosexual individuals if they were male or female and requesting to see their private parts just to be sure. She asked if they had snakes in their pants. Reminds me of a dream I once had. She was naked and raping my brother, so let's not talk about it.

And just what is she doing now? She's in the kitchen, probably sitting in the chair she always sits in, with a cup of instant white coffee on the table, maybe eating a cracker or two, staring at the wall. Before, she was watching TV, and actually speaking to it every now and then, telling it to "Not be so fast, be patient." Oh, and she has asked my aunt to buy her a big sack of sugar.

Makes you wonder. Or maybe not. This is my grandmother, after all, and sooner or later, you become slightly used to it; you begin to subconsciously expect these things.

Big shot screaming, "Put your hands in the sky." He says, "Give it up, boy. Give it up, or you're gonna die. You'll get a bullet in the back of the neck, in the back of the neck right between the eyes."

Friday 16 June 2006

Here come the surveys, and along with them, some scary shit. Run for cover! But before you do that, realise that Survey #1 was done today, and Survey #2 was done a few days ago, without updates 'cause you know how lazy I can be. Now, you may get back to running for cover. Wachaaaa.

Survey #1
______My life______

[*] they call me:
The Moose. Not just any moose. THE Moose.
[*] also: Moosey, Sue-Anne, Sue, Annie.
[*] sex: Well, let's see. I don't have a penis. :[
[*] birthday: 3rd day of the 7th month.

_______Right now_______

[*] feeling:
Yucky. I need a shower.
[*] Listening to: Right Side Of The Bed by Atreyu
[*] doing: Your mum. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Obviously, that was more funny for me, than it was for you.
[*] Talking to: No one. I'm a loner. I don't talk to people. How many scene points do I get for that? :D
[*] Craving for: Lasagne right about now would be good.
[*] thinking of: Milk. Hahahah. It's funny, but I really AM thinking of milk. 'Cause I drank some before, and now my tummy is feeling kind of strange.
[*] hating: MSN. Who else here is hating MSN? Anybody? No? Okay.

_______Love_______

[*] love:
Me. I love me, don't I, Jason? Oh, no. That isn't very emo. There go my scene points. Noooo. (I also love M&M's. :D)
[*] first love: The tooth fairy. She's pretty. How could I resist?
[*] love or lust: Most everyone will say 'love', and since that's the cool thing to do, I pick 'love' too!
[*] true or false: Uhh. Umm. Oh God, how do I choose?! True! No... False!

_______Miscellaneous_______

[*] can you swim:
It would appear so.
[*] whats your most embarasing moment?: I don't know, but I bet yours was misspelling embarrassing. HAHAHA. Go back to school, retard.
[*] what are you scared of: Swimming in the deep part of the ocean, goblins. And uhh. You.
[*] do you like tomatoes?: Yes, tomatoes are nice. Friendly even. :p Taste better when they're stewed, not very kind when they're raw.
[*] how many TVs in d house?: Five. One of them doesn't work though, so it's just on the floor in the living room. :]
[*] how many telephones?: One telephone plugged into the wall. And I'm sure we've got some non-functioning ones somewhere in the house.

______Your looks______

[*] Hair color:
"Your hair isn't actually black, you know. It's brown." - Grenade. Well, there you go. From the man himself. My hair is brown.
[*] Eye color?: Brown. :] And they look scary with light shining in them. MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
[*] Height: They don't have height measurers for me. I'm too short. I just go under all the numbers.
[*] Do u wear contacts or glasses?: Both. 'Cause when contacts attack, it isn't pretty. Always good to have a backup plan like glasses.
[*] Do u have any piercings?: Yes.

______Just lately______

[*] How are you today?:
I told you. Yucky. I need a shower.
[*] What pants are you wearing?: Uhh. Well. They're yellow. They're checkered. And Grenade knows what they are.
[*] What shirt are you wearing right now?: What I slept in. My smelly oversized From Autumn To Ashes shirt. HEHE. Yes, that's going in the wash.
[*] What does your hair look like at the moment?: Hahahaha. Don't ask about my hair. It's horrible.
[*] Last person you met?: Grenade. Shhhhh.
[*] Last conversation?: It was about pucungs and pukis, with the famous talor dadar.
[*] Last Dream you can remember: I have weird dreams where I make out with multiple people. And random people, mind you. The last dream I remember, I made out with the bunny boy and this guy from Friendster that I don't even know. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Weird. I told you. :p

______More about you______

[*] What are the last four digits of your cell?:
What good would that do you, ey? If you want my number, just ask. And I may or may not give it to you.
[*] If u were a crayon, what color would you be?: I don't want to be a crayon, so HAH. That question just blew up in your face.
[*] Where do you shop the most?: Shops, I guess. Since you know, you like, shop in shops.
[*] How many kids do you want to have?: Millions. Thousands of millions.
[*] Favorite Shampoo?: Pantene. Cause that's what I use. ;D
[*] Do you have your own cell phone plan?: No. Because I don't understand the question.
[*] Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone?: Yes. And I'm proud of it, ma nigga.
[*] Who do you dream about: Lots of people. Sometimes people that I invent in my head. :]
[*] Who do you tell your dreams?: Whoever wants to hear them. Or not hear them. Depends. :p
[*] Who's the loudest friend you have?: Zyy. Or umm. That's all I can think of.
[*] Who's the quietest friend?: Noone is as quiet as the great moose.

__________Have you ever__________

[*] Wanted to kill someone?:
Yes. You've all witnessed that. With the drawing of the heart through the stake, and the words, and the pain.
[*] Broken the law?: I'm sure I have.
[*] Tried to kill yourself?: No. Oh, shit. There go even more of my scene points. I can't afford this.
[*] Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: You know what, YES. But that's just 'cause I was scared. Hahahahaha. And it DID get me out of trouble. So, joke's on you.
Survey #2
// Chapter 1:

You Middle name:
I'm not special enough to be have one.
Nickname(s): Moosey, Annie, Suey, Vodka.
Current location: In a chair that's too hard in a room that's too hot.
Hair length: Which hair are you talking about?
Eye color: Brown.

// Chapter 2: The Background

Do you live with your parents:
One of them. And one grandparent, too. And an uncle.
Do you get along with your parents: Usually. I don't get into arguements with my dad, but I guess that has something to do with the fact that he only sees my for one month every year.
Do you have any siblings?: Yes. :] Do you?
What pets do you have?: Lizards, frogs and mosquitoes.

// Chapter 3: Favorite

Ice cream flavor:
Mint with chocolate chips! :D Don't act like you didn't know that already.
Season: I love winter. And autumn.
Color: Red. Green.

// Chapter 4:

Do You Sing in the shower:
Yes, but I also brush my teeth in the shower, so it gets kind of hard 'cause the words get muffled and I choke on toothpaste.
Write memos on your hand?: Mm hmm, yeah. But that doesn't necessarily mean I'll read the memos. Most probably, I'll forget they're there and that I even wrote them on my hand.
Believe in love: Yeah. I love ice cream, do I not?
Wear glasses or contacts?: Both. :D Not at the same time though, cause both my glasses and contacts are degreed so I'd probably go blind.

// Chapter 5: Have You Ever

Broken a bone?:
Yeahas.
Had stitches?: Noho.
Taken painkillers?: They saved my lifeeee, my magical pills.
Gone SCUBA diving?: Not professionally. XD
Been stung by a jellyfish?: Nope.
Been stung by a bee?: No.
Slept with your contacts in overnight?: Yeah. I mean, no. Oh, wait, yes. And let me tell you, sleeping with your contacts in overnight is baaaad.
Thrown up in a restaurant?: No.
Been to overnight camp?: Yeah. If you'd like to call it a camp.
Had detention?: They don't give detention at my school 'cause we're so cool.
Been sent to the principal's office?: No, only the discipline master's. Sounds scary, doesn't it? Discipline master. DISCIPLINE MASTER!

// Chapter 6: Who/What was the last

Person to call you?:
A bumblebee! :p I mean, Grenade.
Person you hugged?: Simon. I made a mess in his kitchen 'cause I made him spill his hot coffee.
Person you tackled?: I haven't tackled anyone recently.
Thing you touched?: Hahahaha. Sounds perverted. Keyboard, you buffalo.
Thing you ate?: A beef burger with cheese. :D And all the sesame seeds fell off, which made me wonder. Why do they put sesame seeds on burger buns anyway?
Thing you drank?: Orange juice. The fake kind. Woohoo.
Feeling: Yucky
Listening to: Turncoat by Anti-Flag

Psst. My mum is in Hong Kong, as of Wednesday, and she'll be back on Sunday. Take note of this, Sue-Anne.

So, you remember I went all PUKIMAK when I realized that I still had to go to school during the holidays because of that whole tuition program thing? Well, that was this week, from Monday to Friday. I haven't attended a single class, hehe, and seeing as it's Friday, I choose to let this day be the day I stop feeling guilty and stupid, as it's the last day and uhh, because. I was really lazy, and I guess I must have somehow 'forgot' to inform my mother of my requirement of attending school. Wonder how it slipped my mind. :D Too late for that anyway, and she's out of the country, so, no regrets, I just have to remember to smile and wave.

Also, I apologise for the outburst of surveys in the previous posts. It's just, I'd had them on my computer for ages, and I was bound to get them out sooner or later, so I decided to do it like that, all at once. Ngahah! I've still got some here though. Take that as a warning.

That reminds me, in ways that I will never understand, but remember I was going all "I must go see the Airholes at the ICC because I must"? You remember? Okay, good. I did go see them, with George and Grenade. I have to say... If only they played more songs. I was enjoying the first bit of music though, the song everyone loves. A Fat Guy Wrote A Song About A Girl, 'cause even I was singing along and maybe jumping a little. Psycho groupie. Oh, and the first thing Grenade said when Midi let out his scream of "Blame you" was "Yeah. He's good." Well said, my brother.

I'm missing someone. Oh, the mystery of it all.

Tuesday 13 June 2006

Survey #1
1. Can you tap dance?
- I wish I could.

2. Do you own a pair of see-thru underwear?
- Hehehe. No.

3. What color is the sky today?
- Blue, becoming grey.

4. Do you own a classic brown teddy bear?
- No...

5. Is your favorite holiday christmas?
- No. Need I explain the celebrating of christmas again?

6. Is there a candle by you?
- No. Haha. Random.

7. If you had an iPOD mini, what color would you have?
- I want a muti-coloured one, if that existed.

8. What song are you listening to?
- Cute When You Scream by Senses Fail.

9. Is it your favorite song?
- It could be one of my favourite songs, it's likable.

10. How many friendster accounts have you had?
- I only need one.

11. Have you ever made a friendster survey?
- No.

12. Are you wearing any jewlery?
- Earrings is all. And it's spelt 'jewellery', buffalo.

13. Where does your grandpa live?
- Both of them are gone from the world, left without warning, never to come back, poof.

14. Are you an angry drunk?
- No, I'm a sleepy puking hugging headbutting uninhibited drunk.

15. Do you prefer pen or pencil?
- Pencil, they've got erasers.

16. Are you wearing deodorant?
- No. HEHE.

17. Ever been in an earthquake?
- Yes. I felt the earthquake from the tsunami, when I was in NZ. Weehee.

18. Is your birthday this month?
- No.

19. Do girls suck?
- Lollipops and God knows what else.

20. Are you afraid of the dentist?
- Hehe. No. Only of the things the dentist uses.

21. Do you know exactly what car you want?
- YES. A rad one that works well.

22. Have you ever bought something from ebay?
- No. But God, I wish I could.

23. Ever seen "boy meets world"?
- Yeah. Haha. That's like. Old.

24. Own a locket?
- No. :] Don't give me one unless it's utterly rad.

25. Do you share a locker?
- No, I don't have one to share.

26. Ever dissected anything?
- Yes. HEE.

27. Ever had a referral?
- Excuse my stupidity, but referral for what? :p

28. Still play with legos?
- Hehe. No. But those were fun. :D

29. Do you know when easter is?
- Yeah. I just have to look at the calendar. Haha.

31. Last time you wrote a note?
- A musical note? Hahaha. Last Tuesday.

32. Ever been on a cruise?
- Yes. But define 'cruise', just so we're clear.

33. Ever gotten pregnant by someone on a cruise?
- No. Haha. Buffalo.

34. Dyed your hair?
- Once, when I was on primary 5.

35. Like your handwriting?
- No. Haha. Some people can't read it.

36. Do you eat?
- No. I inject nutrients into my bloodstream and throw away my digestive system cause I don't need it.

37. Are you wearing lotion?
- No.

38. Last time you talked on the phone?
- Last night. :D

39. Do you know Victoria's Secret?
- Know? Know of.

40. Are you nice?
- The correct question is, are youuu nice?

41. Ever been in love?
- Quit it with the 'ever been in love' questions.

42. What were you last halloween?
- Myself. Scary enough.

43. Ever met a midget?
- No. :] Midgets don't like me.

44. Ever been to Cuba?
- No. You ask the randomest questions.

45. Ever cut yourself shaving?
- Yes. Hahaha.

46. Ever owned an exotic pet?
- What is an 'exotic' pet?

47. Is it your birthday?
- No. I mean, yes. I need a cake.

48. Is it someone elses birthday?
- Yes. It's someone's birthday every day. What are you talking about?

49. Had a good day?
- Had an eventless and boring day.

50. How long did this take you?
- What? The survey? Long enough.

Where did you take your default photo?
- At home. With the empty explosives container.

What exactly are you wearing right now?
- What I slept in. Haahaa.

What is your current problem?
- Emotional crisis. Heeeheee. It's not even funny anymore.
Survey #2
1. what's the last text message on your cellphone say?
- None of your business, mister.

2. whose bed did you sleep in last night?
- I slept in the morning, so none.

3. what color shirt are you wearing?
- White. With yellow sleeves. Why look, it's the yellow house's shirt!

4. most recent movie that you watched?
- Harold and Kumar. :p

5. name one thing that you do everyday?
- Breathe.

6. what's the color of your bedroom walls?
- White.

7. how much cash do you have on you right now?
- Not enough to make you want to steal any.

8. What is your favorite part of the chicken?
- I like drumsticks.

9. What's your favorite sport to watch?
- Hockey. The goal keeper and his little squeaky uniform makes me laugh. Hahah.

10. I can't wait till...?
- The end of exams. WEEEEEEEEEEEE.

11. When was the last time you saw your mom?
- This morning. Now, she's gone to Labuan.

12. Who got you to join friendster?
- Ezam. Hehe. Brings back memories that mean nothing, really. :p

13. What did you have for dinner last night?
- I had rice with butter and Bovril. Hahahahaha. It was nice.

14. Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
- My sister and I share clothes. Hard to tell whose is whose.

15. What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
- Google. It's my homepage, so yeah. Hahah.

16. Do you have an air freshener in your car?
- I would if I had a car.

17. Do you have plants in your room?
- Yes. HEHE. A wilting flower that's probably already dead.

18. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
- No. Priase the Lord.

19. What city was your last taxicab ride in?
- Bali. Weeee.

20. Recent time you were really upset?
- Really really upset? Valentine's day. :D

21. Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
- I've said it before. Most of my exes were assholes, so I wouldn't want me friend going after an asshole.
Survey #3
What makes you most happy?
- Candy. :] And music. Candy and music.

If you could go back in time, and change something, what would it be?
- Meh. I can't be bothered changing anything. My mistakes and everything else is what make me me, and that sounds really gay, but fuck you.

Ever had a near death experience?
- Yeah. Then, I burped and it all went away. Hahaha.

What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
- Am I Wrong by Brand New. Bloody depressing song.

Name someone with the same birthday as you?
- I don't know of anyone who has the same birthday as me. Let me know if you were born on the 3rd of July, ey?

Do you have a crush on someone?
- Meow.

Do they know that you like them?
- Hehe. Right.

Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
- Yep, just last night I was watching the Bear in the Big Blue House.

Are you comfortable with your height?
- I think I'd like to be a little bit taller.

Do you speak any other languages?
- Other than what?

Have you ever ridden in a Hummer limo?
- No. Hehe.

Has anyone really close to you passed away?
- Pop, we weren't really close though, so ignore what I just said.

Do you ever watch MTV?
- Yeah. And sometimes - just sometimes - they actually have good programmes on and play good videos.

What's something that really annoys you?
- My eyes. They keep blurring up. Stupid contact lenses.
Survey #4
1. Have you ever been obsessed with a celebrity?
- Possibly.

2. Who is she/he?
- Mikey Way. :D Bassists. Grr.

3. How's the weather today?
- Annoying.

4.What are you looking forward to?
- Finishing my exams. :]

5. Have any enemy?
- Avril Lavgine. Hahaha. Yeh. Right.

6. How many e-mail addresses you have?
- 3. :p Yahoo, hotmail, gmail. Weeeeeeee. E-mail addresses are fun.

7. The last person who send you a message online?
- Myself. :D Yes, I e-mailed myself. I is cool.

8. How much money do you have right now?
- I don't know, and I'm not going to check. You penyibuk.

9. Does your mobile phone use prepaid card?
- Noo. Oh, wait. Yeess.

10. Do you like Panic! At The Disco?
- Not really. I think I only like "Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Off Her Clothes". They're too electrical and dancey for my tastes. But the way the vocalist says "Fuck" in LITMFAGCHWTOHC is sexy and uninsulting. :p

11. Name one similarity between Panic! At The Disco and The Academy Is.
- They play music. I think that's pretty similar, ey?

12. What do you think about Paris Hilton?
- Uberly thin. :] Lamppost thin even.

13. How many times your friendster profile have been viewed so far?
- 1346655555 this month. Hahahaha. Okay. I don't know.

14. Do you think long distance relationship works?
- Personally, I don't think so because I wouldn't be able to do that. But maybe it does work for some people. Or maybe not.

15. Msn, YM or AIM?
- MSN. It's the fad now. Get with the programme.

16.Do you know your local bands really well?
- No. Heehee. Am I supposed to?

17. What is the nearest big city that is the closest to your current city?
- KL. Haaaaahaaaa. I don't know. Stop asking stupid questions that mean nothing.

18. Where are your friends now?
- At home?

19.Do you prefer Hi5 or Myspace?
- Myspace. Hi5 seems dysfunctional.

20. Who is a good hugger?
- A hugamaniac.

21. Does your friends respect you?
- I wish they did, but they don't. They call me names. Hahaha.

22. Name one of your friend who have the cutest smile (must be opposite sex)
- Uhh. The owner of the movie smile. :D

23. Are you still friends with your ex?
- No. And I don't want to be.

24. Preferable date: dinner or gigs?
- Gig! :D

25. Are you a prep?
- Stop with the labels. Not good.

26. Music genre: Metal or Goth?
- Metal. And then goth.

27.What is your most precious possesion?
- Something precious. Haha. Okay, I'll stop with the stupid answers.
Survey #5
1. One person on a deserted island you would bring:
- Good God, why am I going to a deserted island?

2. Happy with your friends:
- Yeah. My friends.

3. Any of your friends two-faced:
- I suppose. Haha. Hard to tell, you know.

4. If i were looking for you, where would you be saturday nights:
- One month ago, I would have answered at home. But since you asked me today, I will answer "at Hamish's house, or the Aman Complex, on a 'study break' with friends."

5. Last person that told you good job:
- Mr. Mathew Wong, the yellow house teacher. :D After the basketball match that we lost 42-0. HAHAHAHA.

6. ONE person you don't wanna lose:
- Eeeeeeeeee.

7. Name one thing about the past you wish you could change:
- I'm too lazy to change anything. I'll just let everything go the way they went cause I guess it's how it was meant to be. Haha.

8. First person you go to on a bad day:
- Meow.

9. Weirdest thing in your room:
- Simple Plan poster. Hahahahahahaha. It's not mine I swear.

10. Ever tell someone you like them even if you didn't:
- Neh, I don't think so. That's mean. XD

11. Gave up on something you shouldn't have:
- No. I didn't give up on something when I should have. :[

12. Is money everything:
- No, it isn't music, you buffalo.

13. Would you skydive for free:
- Yes. I wanttttt.

14. Anyone you wish you could call right now that wouldnt wanna hear from you:
- Ho ho ho. Santa Clause.

15. Love your physical features:
- Ehehehehehe. No. Not love.

16. Where are you going to be in 15 hours:
- At school, hopefully.

17. Name someone(besides family) that will be there in 10 years:
- Woah. You know, I'm not so sure.

18. Someone you hope will be there in 10 years:
- Everyone. :[

19. Wish you could go back in time:
- For God's sake. What's with the back in time questions? I'm too lazy to go back in time. Stop asking.

20. Ever run away from your house:
- Walked away.

21. Believe in "the one":
- Ooh oohhh. Neo. The Matrix.

22. Ever skip school, if so why:
- Yes. No real reason. I was too lazy. So, I pretended I was sick. Weeeeeeee.

23. What are you listening to:
- The Royal Crown VS. Blue Duchess by From Autumn To Ashes.

24. Last person who sat on your bed:
- My brother.

25. Think theres a heaven and hell:
- I used to doubt their existance. That heaven isn't literally above us, in the sky, and that hell doesn't exist because the Devil was just something people made up just so they had something to blame whenever things went wrong. Now I just don't know.

26. Who would you meet if you could meet anyone:
- God.

27. Are you an open person:
- I'm closed today.

28. Afraid to fall in love:
- Afraid? Hmm. I don't know if you'd describe it as that. I'd hate to create something that I'll only destroy. That's it. :p Sick little suicide.

29. Think you will make a cool parent:
- Ahahahahaha. I'm not giving birth. But if I adopt, I don't think I'd be a good parent. I can't even make my own decisions, how can I bring up a child?

30. Who will you call first when you get engaged:
- My best friend. The dictionary.

31. Is your bestfriend a virgin:
- Yes. I think. Hehe. I don't know, can dictionaries lose their virginity?

32. Do you wear make up:
- Haven't worn any in a long time.

33. Do you like chicken or beef:
- I'm sick of chicken. But I'm friends with cows. I can't eat them. Moo.

34. Ever doubt how much someone cares about you:
- Haha. Yeah. Very sad thing.

35. 1 person u think of before sleep:
- Me. I'm vainnnnnnnnnn.
Survey #6
01. What season is your birthday in?
- I was born on a winter morning. :]

02. What is your favorite color?
- Green. Red.

03. Are you an alcoholic?
- No. Just cause my nickname is Vodka, it doesn't mean anything. :D

04. Is your dad an alcoholic?
- He drinks alot. Probably everyday. But I don't know if he's an alcoholic. Does that make him an alcoholic? He doesn't get drunk though.

05. Were you born addicted to heroine?
- Hahahaha. Funny question. Yes, I was. It was love. Then it broke my heart and left me with an asshole who broke my broken heart again.

06. You wish you were tough, right?
- Neh. I love being weak. Weak is the new "cool".

07. Do you like Brand New?
- Yes. Hehe. Don't apologise, I hope you choke and die.

08. Do you like ska?
- Yeah, sure. :]

09. What is your favorite color now?
- You just asked me. Like it would change in a duration of 3 minutes.

10. Do papercuts hurt you?
- Only when the cuts are 2 seconds fresh.

11. Have you ever slept in your underwear?
- Only underwear? No. :]

12. Do you think there will ever be a cure for cancer?
- I don't know. I'm not a doctor. Could people really cure it? Me no know.

13. Do you know anyone with cancer?
- No. :[ At least, I think I don't.

14. Do you have any scars on your face?
- Yeah. Emotional and physical. Can't you see them?

15. Hungry?
- Nope! Congratulate me. How many times have I answered 'no' to this question?

16. What is your favorite pair of shoes?
- My low-top chucks, I guess. Cause. Memories. And they're comfortable and falling to pieces!

17. Are you a shoe freak?
- Heehee. Not so. But kind of, for sneakers.

18. What's in your pocket?
- Lint!

19. Are you Macho?
- Totally. Wanna feel my muscles?

20. Is your boyfriend Macho?
- Yeahuh.

21. What rhymes with Noodleroast?
- Poodletoast.

22. Do you own a hat?
- A hat as in anything that goes on your head? Yes.

23. Believe in Revenge?
- No. I believe in justice. That's hardly the same thing. Haha.

24. What color are your toenails?
- They'd be black if they were painted, but they're not, so bite me.

25. Why?
- That's just the way it is.

26. OCD?
- Nope. I don't think so. Why? Do you think so? Wait a minute. What is it you wanted to know exactly?

27. Do you wish you were black?
- No. Heehee. I'm happy with me. What are you? Some kind of racist?

28. What is your mother's sister's middle name?
- Their middle names are ... None of them have middle names. Or maybe they do and I just don't know how to analyse these Chinese names.

29. Do you shave your toes?
- HAHAHAHAHA. Yes. HAHAHAHA. Sorry, it was funny.

30. WHO DO YOU LIKE?!
- Him and her and you and them but not me.

31. Are you allergic to anything?
- No, I think. But maybe I am and I just haven't found it.

32. Who is your worst enemy?
- I told you. Avril Lavgine. She so wants me to beat her up. Hahaha.

33. Do you believe in Jesus/God?
- I'd answer with detail, but some things aren't meant for the internet. I just want to ask you one thing, if Jesus is God, why was he praying when he was on Earth? He must have been praying to someone, and if he is God, why was he praying to himself? Following this logic, I say God must be someone else. So, Jesus and God are two seperate entities. Change the question.

34. Why/Why not?
- Go bite yourself.

35. How's the weather?
- Hot. Enough to make you sweat.

36. Do you celebrate Christmas?
- No, actually. :] I smile and thank people for their greetings and very rare presents, but that's all.

37. Do you celebrate Hanukkah?
- I'm not Jewish. But thanks for asking.

38. Do you like the way your hands look?
- I only like my palms. The rest isn't very pretty. And Simon says I need more fiber.

39. Do you like Korn?
- Yeah. However, their new work seems to be slacking.

40. Do you like corn?
- I like corn in my toasted sandwiches, and in my soup, and on the cob. But not anywhere else. Specially not in my nose, like that time I puked and got some up my nose, which came out when I sneezed, along with a piece of ham. Hahahahaha.

41. Do you think you are a failure?
- In the process of failing.

42. Do you
- YES!

43. Are you happy with where your life is going?
- Where's it going?

44. What do you want to do later in life [job wise]?
- Write awesome articles for Alternative Press. But that won't happen because my English teacher hates me, and she does not seem to want me to continue writing articles. And I think she kicked me off the Editorial team without telling me. :[ And it's not fair. And she's discouraging, and making me question my writing abilities.

45. Do you like airports?
- Yeah. Sure. What's not to like about them?

46. Who cuts your hair?
- I do. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Explains a lot, ey.

47. Are you missing any teeth?
- Half a tooth, but I got that capped.

48. Why/Why not?
- Piggyback ride incident.

49. Have you ever played Jumangi?
- No. Hehe. I would, if they sold it here for $2.

50. Are you sXe?
- Totally. Haha. You stupid buffalo.

51. Are you British?
- Yes. :] *snicker snicker.

52. Are you Ukrainian?
- No. HEHE.

53. Do your shoes always match your shirt?
- My shirt? I don't care.

54. Is your mom a disco fiend?
- No. Hehe. But she does like to dance, I guess. Makes me giggle.

55. Do you cut yourself for fun?
- Haha.

56. Are you wearing shoes?
- No. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee. My toes can wiggle as much as Grenade's hair.

57. Are you wearing underwear?
- Yep. Guess what colour. I bet you'll get it right.

58. Have you ever snorted cocaine?
- Wonder what that's like.

59. Are you a sucker for "anything acoustic"?
- Haha. God. People are overabusing that phase. Give Brand New a break for God's sake.

60. Would you be flattered if someone made you a mixtape?
- Yeah. Mixtapes are awesome, intimate and honest. At least, that's the impression I get. I've never gotten one though, what do I know?

61. Do you LOVE beef jerkey?
- I don't think I've had any. I don't love it though.

62. Do you LOVE Africa?
- Don't talk about Africa like the thousands of people aren't dying of treatable diseases there.

63. Has anyone ever seen you without makeup?
- Yeah. I don't wear make up often, buffalo.

64. Are you a horrible typer?
- No. I'm actually pretty good, minus the typos.

65. Do you talk to smarterchild on a daily basis?
- Haha. Smarterchild gets boring after a while of his programmed answers.

66. Do you want to move?
- Move what? Move where? Move howwww?

67. Is your keyboard clean?
- Hehehehehe. Clean. Is anything clean?

68. Do you call your mom for fun?
- No. Hehe. Oh, only when I'm at her office. I'll call her desk just to say "Hi." Mehehehehe.

69. Do you have plans for the summer?
- Which summer? Neh.

70. Do you LOVE orange soda?
- No, but I know who does. Kel loves orange soda. Is it true? Mmhmm. He does, he does, he does, he do-es.

Monday 12 June 2006

Feeling: Silly
Listening to: I'm A Sucker For Fakes by Forgive Durden

Survey #1
Who is in the house with you?
My mama, my grandmama, my brother and uncle.

Who was the last person to sms you?
Boy. He called me ambung cause I wasn't replying his texts or missed calls. Heehe.

Who are you thinking about now?
Honestly? Hamish. Haha.

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
Grenade.

Who's house did you last go to?
Grenade's. Hehe. His mum had a talk with me and Simon. And I saw his bedroom, where all the magic happens.

Who are your best friends?
My best friend is Far. :] I only need one.

Who is (was) your favorite teacher?
Marlyn Cruz, Hema, Mili, and Mala. :D

Who's birthday is next?
George's. 26th, right?

Who was the last person you told you love them?
:]

Who do you wish you were with right now?
Pukimak.

Who's your favorite relative?
The cousin called Daryl. It's always been him. He's nice. :p

Where do (did) you go to school?
Chungggggg Hwa. Stop asking for God's sake, I think the people know already.

Where do you live?
Under a fucking rock.

Where is your phone?
Charging, plugged into the socket near the TV.

Where are your parents?
My mum is in her bedroom, she said she was sleepy, so I guess she's asleep. And my dad, it's about 5 or 6AM in New Zealand, so I think he'd still be asleep, in his bedroom in Taumarunui.

Where do you sleep?
In my bed, and sometimes on the couch.

Where do you shop the most?
I don't really shop, weird, but true.

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
My cousin gave it to me. It's a hand-me-down.

Where did you last take a car ride to?
My house. Hehe.

Where in your house are you?
The living room place area thing.

What was the last thing you ate?
Chocolatessss.

What was the last thing you drank?
Coke. I had a craving. Had to walk all the way to Gamezone to buy a $1 can of Coke. Damn you evil Coke monster.

What color pants are you wearing?
Uhh. Faded blue-ish white.

What kind of cell phone do you have?
A super-ass-kicking one that lets me blow up the Earth with just the click of a button.

What is the closest item near you that is red?
The sensor light for the mouse.

What are you wearing on your feet?
Skin?

What instant messaging service do you use?
MSN messenger mostly.

What is your favorite colors?
Green, red.

What is your screen name?
Can I just tell you my MSN display name? "Poison in my drinking glass." Except it's more animated than that, I can't sign in to check, so bite me if I'm wrong.

What is your most used away message?
"I'm away! Now, I'm back. I'm away again! And back.. And away!" I'm kidding. I don't use an away message.

What is your shoe brand?
Adidas, Converse and uhh something else that I can't name right now cause my memory fails me.

What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?
I only have one pair of jeans that I actually wear. So, shorts.

What is the last movie watched?
Hawking. :] Love that scientific shit that makes sense.

What song are you currently listening?
Questions by System Of A Down.

When did you start school?
I don't know, piss off.

When did you meet your best friend?
My first year in Chung Hwa, 1999. It was horrible.

when is you birthday?
3rd day of the 7th month.

When did you last go to the mall?
Today. We were supposed to watch a movie, but we're smart and don't book tickets so all the seats were taken and we couldn't watch Silent Hill.

When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
Last year, some time in December.

When did you last burn a candle?
How the hell should I remember?

When were you last at school?
Friday morning.

When did you last see your dad?
December 28th. At the airport, waving goodbye, or something along those lines.

When did you last take a shower?
This afternoon, before going to the Mall to not watch the movie.
Survey #2
WHAT...

1. bothers you ryt now?
- The gayness of Hamish and Scotland and Hamish-less Brunei. Eeeeeeeee.

2. is your favorite month of the year?
- June?

3. was your dream last night?
- I don't remember. Unusual.

4. is your greatest fear?
- Swimming in the deep, deep part of the ocean.

5. was the best thing that happened to you this week?
- My mum was happy with me, for once. That, my friend, is amazing.

6. are u planning to do this weekend?
- Watch Silent Hill. Please. Haha. Then trick the prince into letting us fly to Scotland for free to steal Hamish. :]

7. can you promise to the one you love?
- That I'll love them sincerely, and if I hurt them, it's not on purpose. HAHAHAHA.

8. will you wish for if you have a genie?
- A fairy godmother. :]

WHO...

1.are you thinking of ryt now?
- :[ The cow. Meow.

2. do you run to when you're down?
- Far, Grenade, Hakiim, Hamish. :] I lovee them.

3. are the most influential people in your life ryt now?
- Far. She's influensive. Hahaha. I don't care if that word doesn't exist.

4. was the last person you went out with?
- Simon, Grenade, and Alex.

5. is the one you're missing ryt now?
- Shhh.

6. will you call/text later?
- Whoever call/texts me with something replyable. Actually, Hamish. He just texted, so yeaaahh.

7. completes your day?
- Whoever knows how.

8. starts your day?
- Whoever can. Hahahaha. Oh, yea. Very specific.

WHEN...

1. will you take a bath?
- I already took a bath. To the kitchen. Hahaha. I'm so funny.

2. will you watch a movie?
- Whenever we get the chance to watch Silent Hill, cause, uhh, that's on the agenda.

3. was the last time you went out with your friends?
- Last night, yesterday. Ngahahaha.

4. was the last time you said "i love you"?
- Today! I think. I love my mummy.

5. was the last time you read a book?
- Today. I'm still reading the Violin book. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Stop laughing. It's not funny.

6. was the last time you asked for help?
- I.. don't... know.

7. was the last time you kissed?
- Hehe.

8. did u last receive a gift?
- Today, now I can be green like a grenade. Haha. Yeh, that wasn't exactly a gift, but HAH.

DO...

1.Do u have a crush?
- Crush smush.

2.Do u believe in love?
- I believe in a thing called love. Just listen to the rhythm of your heart. Yeah. The Darkness. Heehee.

3.Do u easily get attracted to the opposite sex?
- Attracted? Nahhh. :p

4.Do u get jealous easily?
- Yeah. But everyone gets jealous, even though it's a sin. A deadly sin. DEADLYYYY.

ETO PA.. (Yes, I will say "What the fuck" as well)

1.Any people in-love with u right now?
- Like I know. :]

2.Want to get married?
- Maybe. Eventually. I keep thinking I'll never get married, and how sad my life will be. Hahaa.

3.Ever did something unusual for love?
- Unusual. I guess so. People do stupid things when they're in love. Even when the 'love' part is just a lie.

4.What do u notice first in a person?
- The way they dress? Haa. It's the first thing you see when you see a person, what else are you going to notice first?

5. Are you missing someone right now?
- Mebbeh.
Survey #3
1.Where have you been an hour ago?
- I had my butt placed firmly on the couch.

2. State your name?
- Moosey. And you are?

3. Do you like your name?
- Yeah, man. It's rad. Haha.

4. Can you remember what you did on the first day of your school?
- The current school? Yeah, and everyone kept thinking I was from Switzerland, no matter how many times I told them 'New Zealand'.

5. What do you want to be ten years from now?
- Happy. :]

6. What do u feel upon receiving emails?
- Most of them are just junkmail and mean nothing, but when I receive nice emails from friends, then I'll feel pleased, I guess. That they remembered me. Haha.

7. At what age you first learned to use a pc?
- When I was 3/4, possibly. I remember playing this awesome game on the apple computer when I was still living in NZ. Some memories are meant to be remembered.

8. Have you ever eaten any exotic food?
- What do you consider exotic for food?

9. What was the last illness that you had?
- Dyhorrea. I don't know how to spell it. Forgive meeee.

10. Do you like listening to rap music?
- Hahahaha. No.

11. Have you ever thought of driving the train to uni?
- Yeah, sure. I'd love to drive a train. Haha. Trains are cool.

12. What did you do last 1st November 2005?
- I can't remember. But I was probably doing nothing at home, wishing that person who I now call the dickhead would take me out. :]

13. Which do you prefer? sunny days or rainy days?
- Rainy days. They're great. I love walking in the rain because no one knows I'm crying.

14. When was the last time you browsed the bible?
- December 2005. :p

16. What is the brand of your first wristwatch?
- I don't know. Haha. I don't wear watches. Is it just me, or did this survey skip a number?

17. Look at your back. what did you see?
- Clothes. So many clothes.

18. Say something about the person whom you like..
- I like that person.

20. What did you have for breakfast today?
- Peanut butter and bananas on toast. You should try it; it's good. There it is again! It skipped a number!

21. Your last dream that you remembered?
- I dreamt I hung out with the cow and he had blue hair and was dressed all in black. :p

22. What do you usually say when you meet a person?
- "Hi. You're hot, and you have a cute ass. Can I touch it?" HAHAHAHAHA. No, really.

23. Do you agree on the saying "to forgive is to 4get?
- No. :] You can forget something, but not necessarily forgive. And vice versa.

24. Last thing you held before using the computer?
- TV off button.

25. Where is the place you always dreamed of?
- I don't dream of places, but I'll play along. The beach.

26. When was the last time your tears fell?
- I don't know, some time when I felt useless and unworthy of being happy and that emotions were only temporary, so why bother being happy. Am I Wrong by Brand New can do that to you. Hee.

27. Are you going to leave your parents in time?
- How far in time? Haha. God, you make it sound like I'm going to travel back in time with them and leave them there.

28. At what age are you ready to get married?
- Whenever it is that I find someone who's brilliant enough to make me want to marry him, and if he thinks I'm brilliant enough to make him want to marry me.

29. Long hair or short?
- What? I have long hair. HAHA.

30. First person to run to if you are depressed?
- Far, Grenade, Hakiim, Hamish. Yeah, I'll run to them simultaneously, they're that kick-ass.

31. Whats the last movie you watched? with who?
- Hawking. With myself, at home.

32. Who was the last person you sms?
- Hamish. *Headbutts.

33. What was your worst flood experience?
- Most of them are the same. The road to go to my house gets flooded easily, and it used to happen everytime it rained heavily, so we had to go to my aunt's house instead.

34. Were you attracted to a person ten years older than you?
- Haha. Attracted. Like a magnet. La la la.

35. Are you happy at this point of your life?
- Yeah, sure. I'll stop complaining.

36. What do you want to eat tomorrow?
- Lasagne. Cheesy lasagne.

37. Are you in love now?
- Meow.

38. With whom?
- Mind your own business.

39. If you could have one wish right now, what would it be?
- Armageddon, come, come.

40. By the end of the day, what do you say to yourself?
- I don't talk to myself. Haha. Actually, I do. I say "Bloody hell, I wonder how I managed to stay alive this long."

Saturday 10 June 2006

Feeling: Bored
Listening to: Give It All by Rise Against

My mum went to school to get my report card for mid-year exams today, and hehe, I'm bored, so I'm going to show off my marks that aren't at all good. :D


Subject
Paper results
Overall
English language
Mathematics
Physics
Chemistry
Bahasa Melayu
Additional Maths
Biology
Principles of Accounts
Melayu Islam Beraja
Basic Chinese
Paper 1: 82%; Paper 2: 72%
.
Paper 1: 57.5%; Paper 2: 40%; Paper 3: 90%
Paper 1: 57.5%; Paper 2: 38%; Paper 3: 72.25%
Paper 1: 73%; Paper 2: 66%
.
Paper 1: 62.5%; Paper 2: 70%; Paper 3: 45%
Paper 1: 75%; Paper 2: 45.5%
.
.
74%
64%
60%
55%
75%
7%
68%
65%
55%
89%


Yes, I find the Malay marks surprising too. Hahahaa. Those overall marks on the far right are the final marks, derived from test 1, assessment marks and everything else in between, not the results of my papers taken, explaining why it doesn't add up. Mm hmm. And my Add Maths; makes you want to laugh and ask "What are you? Coconuts?!", ey? Well, maybe I am. Coconuts.

Hamish left for Scotland today. Gah. For 2 weeks, my street will be very quiet and lonely.

Thursday 8 June 2006

And Far says I'm getting fat. And you know, she's right. That can only mean one thing...... I'm going to be squishy.

I have to go now; I'm not as free as you people, yeah. I can't read blogs whenever I like; I have to go to tuition. I'm a busy, busy person. Haha.

No, really. I am.
Feeling: Sick

Sometimes I want to throw my hands up; to wave the white flag; to apologize for everything i havent done yet. But usually I want to forget the pictures and the rumors; to become a recollection, a shared memory. Visually: a faint, sentimental face that blurs into the background of everything.

I wish there were words stronger than "Fuck you," but face down on a wet carpet, salty eyes, I can't think of them.

Just some more words I stole from Pete Wentz. :]

I've always wondered what things looked like to colourblind people. Now, I know. And 'cause I'm so nice, you can know, too.

Wednesday 7 June 2006

Hahahahahahahaha. I'm such a fucktard. I've been begging Airholes to play Walls by Emery for so long, and they played that song yesterday, and I just realized it was WALLS BY EMERY. Hahahahahahahahaha.

I repeat: Fucktard.

And shiiiit. AFI just released a new album. Literally; they released it yesterday. I guess everyone loves that date - 060606. It's just so hardcore. x]
Feeling: Sleepy
Listening to: It's Been A While by Staind

First, I must warn you. After typing this post and rereading it, I discovered that it really makes no sense, so it'll just be a ramble of words that aren't good for anything except being something I exchange for boredom and free time. Wachaaaa.

I wanted to post something yesterday so that I can say I posted on 666, but I didn't get to because monkeys were stealing my fruit and I had to go outside to stop them. Heeheehee.

:D I don't have school on Saturday, it's Parent's Day, so holidays officially start for me at 12:50PM Thursday, and I was all excited about it, but then I realized our school did this really stupid thing of making us go to school during the holidays for tuition classes. I have only one thing to say = PUKIMAK.

Hee. Sorry.

Airholes are playing at the ICC on Sunday at 2PM, and I must go, because I must. And Zyyyyy, you know what that means.

I've passed all my subjects for Mid-Year exams, except Add. Maths, but that's okay, because Add. Maths can just bite me and go to hell. :]

Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat.

Hoho. M&M's and and, uhh... Palir.