Feeling: Stupid
Listening to: Printers printing

You know what I don't understand? Why we put an apostrophe(spelling?) after the name and before the 's' when we're saying something belongs to someone. Like "Mary's lamb." Now, that's weird.

I know I only posted like 17 minutes ago, but so what. I had a random thought. Now, that's weirder.

I have $0.20 on my credit and I don't want to spend it. Now, that's weirdest.

Feeling: Relieved
Listening to: People talking

Well, hello there. I'm in the office. I'll write in sequence so it's easy for you to follow. Starting from Azmi's party.

Friday: So I went to Azmi's party and I just had a feeling I'd see Khalid(a guy I worked with) there. And I was right. I feel like he's not sure whether he should be my friend or not. Oh well. After figuring out Khalid was there I sat in front of the TV and pretended to watch it. Something about snakes. Yeah, after that I just went home.

Saturday: I went for the rehersal today, but being my clumsy, hopeless self, I mixed up the times with the rehersal and the real thing. So I thought today started at 8AM when it started at 8:30AM and vice versa. That was dumb. It was real boring anyway, we just sat there. But after a few long minutes/hours, I was too not there to pay attention, me and Far went to eat in the canteen. We went to Yayasan after it was all finished, and you could say 'interesting' things happened.

Once I got home I went to sleep, cause I was just so damn tired but I knew Far was going to come over. She did, but I was sleeping so I couldn't let her in and she left. HAHAHA. She came twice and a half. :) Oooh, I'm so reliable.

After waking up and realizing I wasn't there to let her in, I figured I'd better be getting ready for the 7 birthdays party. I was pretty bummed before going for reasons I won't state, but after Prince picked me up, it was alright. The bands were good, though I couldn't hear a word of what the vocalists were saying(except for bits of 'Y'all Want A Single?' by Korn). Did I mention there were 3 bands, not just 1? Well, there was. So that was nice. Got the people all moshing and shit. Oh yeah, one of the guys at the house gives free mohawks and stuff. When I got there, they were liberty spiking a girl and dying it all sorts of colours including blue and green. Right before I dumped some food on my plate, Prince asked me if I know Certy and I turned around and said "Mickey Mouse?" and he replied "Minnie!"(it's an inside joke thing). That means I finally met Certy, or as I call him, Mickey Mouse. Went home after it struck midnight(that's the time I turn into a pumpkin) and bla dee bla.

Sunday: Graduation day. I got 5th position in the class, referring to the exams we took in the year like first and second trial, with an average of 71.49%. Boom. Aaaanndd, for the mid-term, I was late 13 periods while in the final-term I was late 15 periods. HAHA. :D I rock.

At night, I was set free. Ok, not true. I went out for dinner at T.T Blues Cafe. That name still cracks me up. Hehe. I mean, T.T Blues. Back on topic, I went with my cousin who'd just flown in from Australia(Philip), his brother(Benji), my other cousin(Alison), her father, my uncle and mum. Before eating, I went to the CD shop with Benji and there I noticed a girl from school had a job. I smiled at her. I keep doing that. I keep smiling at people I don't really know but see all the time. O_o Lets just say I'm... 'nice'.

Monday: I stayed at home all day. I ate in total 2 and a half potatoes with cheese and bacon, and watched TV. I got bored after a while and brought out the Vodka and Coke. Bam bam. Mum came home, I had to put away the Vodka fast and when she walked through the door, I was sitting there all innocent-like sipping my coke. :) Weeheee.

Tuesday: Also known as today. I woke up extra early to come down to the office so I'd be in time for my piano practical exam which was at 12PM. I was early. :) Goodie. I'd stressed about my speech and in the end I didn't even have to say it. The examiner asked me to play and after played she said I should continue playing the piano because I'll be good. Haha. Righto. I was in and out of there in less than 15 minutes. She didn't even ask me any music-related questions other than if I liked it.

Philip drove me to the exam, with Benji in the passenger seat next to him and this is me in the back seat of the Porche: "I feel like a sardine." This is Benji: "Too fast! Too slow! Too much on the left side! What are you doing?!" and that's bout when he shook his head with disbelief. Well, Philip'd just gotten his license and there were sudden pushes of the accelerator and brake, making Benji scream some more. I thought it was fun with him driving though. Haha.

Please stop me from smiling. I'm not even doing that in real life. I'm just glad ALL the exams of the year are done and over with. It took me 37 minutes to type this out. I'm gonna go now. One last thing, I'm leaving brunei in exactly 4 more days!

Feeling: Evil
Listening to: Styrofoam Plates by Death Cab For Cutie

Wow. This song is so pretty. Wanna know a secret? I've always wanted to post an entry twice in one day. :) And I've done it. Haha. Admit it, I'm the weirdest.

But enough of that, guess who I saw on MTV today? Thousand Foot Krutch! A lot of you will be saying "who?" right about now, but that's my point. They were on After Skool Rocks, but M-fucking-TV misspelled the name of the song. It said "Rawfist", but I know for a fact the song title is "Rawkfist". With a 'k' in the middle. Like 'rawk' when people are so lame and say "punk rawk" instead of 'punk rock'. Yep, so they were on MTV, that must mean something. I know it's MTV, but at least they're getting some publicity. Which reminds me. I had a little interview with one of the members through e-mail because they were nice enough to reply. And through the e-mails they now know where Brunei is and that it exists. Also, they know they've a fan called Sue-Anne living there. HAHAHA. Cool, yes? To get to know them, go here. They may be too diverse for some people though. Their loss.

I've just finished peeling potatoes and drowning them in water. My mum's going to make potato salad for Azmi's party. Too bad I won't be eating any though, cause you know, I don't like mayonnaise. So I'm just waiting for her to come home, I was supposed to clean up the house today, but I procrastinate too much. Plus, I'm too lazy. Yeah, that's mostly it. I'm lazy. And Prince knows it too well.

Better go now. Death Cab For Cutie's calling me!

Feeling: Calm
Listening to:Imagine by A Perfect Circle

The stupid PMB results aren't out yet. :( They were supposed to be out last Monday, but now I'm hearing they're coming out today, which is Friday if you're lagging. That makes me wonder how things will go on Sunday, Graduation day.

This week's keeping me pretty busy. First, on Monday I had that group piano lesson about the exam, and on Tuesday Far and her sister came over to my house to be entertained. Hyuk. Wednesday was the day I had my last piano lesson for the year and on Thursday I went to the Peter Pan pantomime. Today is my nephew, Azmi's, birthday and so there'll be a little party thing and tomorrow there's rehersal for Graduation and also a party Prince asked me to go to. Sunday is the day awaited also known as Graduation day. With a capital G.

So as I was saying, I went to that Peter Pan pantomime thing they're showing at the Empire. It was alright. It was a pantomime. I wore this new shirt I bought, which I think is cool, and I later found out it would be itchy. And I wore my boots, which I also think are cool. They make me feel powerful. HAHAHA. I had on my torn jeans too, just because I felt like it. This is weird, I'm not used to talking about what I wear and stuff. I'll stop. After the show, mum and I hadn't eaten dinner, so we went to eat at the airport.

Now I'm home, haven't slept yet. Lets talk about the party Prince is bringing me to. It's going to be 7 people's birthday and so they're all celebrating at the same time. There'll be a newly-formed, so I've heard, band performing and lots of alcohol. Haha. But Prince has been protective enough to ask me not to drink so I can remain sober with him. :P I haven't drunken anything alcoholic in a long time, so I'm okay. Also, Prince has requested we leave by the time they all get drunk, just so we don't get mixed in anything we'd regret. Hahaha. So true.

Today I realized it is true. I do calm down easily after being angry. Ah well, could I say that's a good thing? I'm running out of things to say and I think I'd better be in bed by now. Till next time, take care.

Feeling: Sick
Listening to: Siberian Kiss by Glassjaw

"If I can't have you, no one will!" Hahaha. I just heard that line from the song I'm listening to. I'm only online journaling because I've got news. Yup, yup. Rumour has it, the PMB examination results will be out on Monday, which is officially today. It's not out yet, but stay tuned over here.

Other than that, looks like I'm going to get a band tee. Or two! Haha. I'm such a sucker for band tees. These ones are going to be from Virtigo, thank you, and I'm going to have to wait till the end of December to get them. You can see them here and here. Hyuk hyuk. I'm an ass. :) So materialistic over these tees. Thanks Virtigo!

Yesterday was Dark Throne's birthday. I had no way to wish him a happy one though, so I wonder how it went. Hmm. I think that's all I came on to say. Happy Raya, folks. By the way, I've still got those cookies around. They're still good, don't worry. So, if you want some, you know what to do. Haha. *Licks <3.

Feeling: Confused
Listening to: Meet You Halfway There by Student Rick

Today was a hell-shaking day. I don't know what to say about it. So I won't talk about today, I'll talk about my last Saturday to Monday. Because that's when I went on my trip to Malaysia. But before I start, let me explain something, we, in this little 'story' is me, my mum and uncle. Right. Lets get on with it.

Who would have thought I, Sue-Anne, the girl who hates travelling, especially in cars for long periods of time, would go on a road trip to little nearby parts of Malaysia. On Saturday afternoon, evening(however you put it, it was 4:45PM), I got in the car and took a drive to the nearest Malaysian town - Miri. But first of all we made a pit stop at Fratini's and picked up our pizza. It's strange, I don't usually like hot pineappe, like the ones they put on pizzas, but Fratini's does something that makes the Hawaiian pizza enjoyable. Amazing.

So anyway, we drove to Miri and then checked into the Mega Hotel. After that we did a little browsing through the nearby shops. And it was during this time that I came face-to-face with the fact that I don't like shopping all that much and I'm not good at shopping for ladies shoes. HAHAHA. Well, the only real reason why I do't like shopping was because I can't stand people watching me, for example, the salesgirls and etc. So yes, that's the reason why I don't like shopping. I like getting new stuff though, don't get me wrong. Also, let me repeat in caps, I SUCK AT SHOPPING FOR LADIES' SHOES. Any help would be appreciated. Haha. Pity me.

The next morning I woke up real early, like around 8 which really is real early for me. Then we drove down to the Niah Caves, which took, what I think was, a 3.6KM walk that lasted 2 hours, but then I had to go through the walk again to go back, so in total it took me 4 hours. Was very tiring for my and my weak knees and ankles. The caves were dark, duh, and filled with bats and birds. So I was careful not to get any shit on me. Hehehe. On the walk back, there was this guy walking behind me and I was wearing my torn jeans with the lyrics on them. After a while of walking with him behind me, I heard him say "smash my heart into dust" which is written at the back of my pants, and that just made me laugh, or smile, knowing that someone read my pants. Haha. Felt cool.

After the walk, we drove down to Bintulu where we spent the night at a place called Parkcity Everly Hotel. Was so tired from the walk that I slept on the way, and when we got to the hotel, I had a hot bath then went to sleep. My legs felt like jelly by then.

The next morning, I woke up once again, very early. Then, headed back to Miri to continue our shopping. But before we got there, there was a little trouble getting out of Bintulu. It was like Hotel California, you can check out any time you like, but you can never leave. Haha. Eventually though, we managed to make our way out of there. I got some cool stuff too, on our shopping trip. My favourites are the black Diesel hoodie, studded belt and shoelaces I got. Yes, I bought shoelaces. Just because. Muahahaha. They're white with red splatters, kind of like blood. I put them in my school shoes and I'm going to wear them to graduation. I'll rock so much. :)

But now that I'm back in Brunei, I haven't been up to much. I made cookies today. Chocolate chip ones. But I made way too many. Is there such a thing as too many cookies? If you want some, give me a call. I hear they're pretty good.

I'm in love with this song now. Real emo. I recommend a listen to it if you need a good whack on the emotional side.

Meet You Halfway There by Student Rick

We pack our bags again
so long farewell goodbye my love
and I'll see you then
the third week of July
I'll hold you in my arms all night
and kiss your lips

tell me why
why I cannot touch you...
so far away...
please don't cry...
we'll cross the bridge together
just meet me there...

I'm heading east back home
1000 miles
steal your heart
away from me
this time will come again
we'll pack our bags goodbye my love
I'll see you then

tell me why
why I cannot touch you...
so far away...
please don't cry...
We'll cross the bridge together
just meet me there...
just meet me there...

I'll be going to bed now. Today was just sooooo hectic for me, I can't keep up. *rolls eyes.

Yours when the lie slips,
Vodka-

PS: I do realize that today is actually yesterday, but what the hell.

Feeling: Desperate
Listening to: Numb by Disturbed

Holidays - they're nice to have around, but when you can't find anything to do with them, they can be a problem. And then they start to make you actually miss school, studying, even teachers and just having something to do. Maybe it's just me, but being in Brunei for the holidays doesn't keep my very occupied. I mean, sure, there is Gadong, but personally, it's getting lamer and lamer with more of the Hip Hop or whatever the hell it is over there. The shops are all the same. We need variety. No offense here, I'm just stating my opinion. Those with me, good on ya. I think I need a trip to KB or Tutong. Just because.

Far spent last night here, because I was so lonely. Which is, sadly, true. Hahaha. So, it was nice of her dad to let her stay. We watched Sister Act 2 and stayed up till 4 talking. It's what girls do, I can't help it. She wasn't going to stay initially. She was just going to come visit me for a few hours, but I don't know, she got to stay. And it's cool, cause it's the first time I've had someone sleep over at my place, in Brunei. Hahaha. What a loser.

I'm out of salt and vinegar chips. I ate them all while I was slowly breaking down while listening to Disturbed in my bedroom just now. So, yeah, I need more chips. Can't live without my chips.

By the way, the PSR results came out today, if not earlier and I've already had my glimpse at the results. The CHMS result page is here, just if you wanted to know. So, for your information, my brother, the boy who passed and got to Primary 6 with a 50.7 percentage, has not passed his Malay, which automatically makes him flunk the whole grade. But, I'm proud of him. Cause he got an A in Maths! I didn't think it was possible, but it happened. He got an A in all the subjects I got an A in too, Science, English and Maths. Oh yes, and he got a D on the General Paper.

I've just got to say Prince is the sweetest. He really is awesome. It's nice knowing him, and hanging out with him when I get to. So, that's all this paragraph was for. Just to tell you how much I adore him. I don't know why, but some people just don't take a shine to him like I do. ;)

I've got to go now. It's 2AM and my mum keeps telling me to go to bed every 5 minutes. I'm chatting with Niz now and he's keeping me, for the moment, entertained. But, as I said, I'm going. One more thing before I do, I saw Chewy the other time, I didn't tell you. He let his hair grow. :) Till next time, love you.

Feeling: Relaxed
Listening to: Brena by A Perfect Circle

Howdy. I never thought A Perfect Circle music could grow on me, but it did. I'm starting to like slow songs like these, it's relaxing. And I find it kind of dark for some reason. Yeah, dark and lazy.

For once since the holidays have started, I feel like I've accomplished something. Hahaha. Not counting me being finished with writing the notes for Right Here Waiting though, because that was yesterday's accomplishment. Today, I was listening to the Taking Back Sunday CD I burned, when I had a craving for art. At first, I wanted to paint something, but I don't know where my sister hid my paint and brushes, so that idea went away as fast as it came. Then, I was lying on my bed, thinking, and I saw my charcoal pencil. I'd only drawn one picture with charcoal, so I thought, why not. I took the pencil in my hands and this formed on the paper:

Click on it if for some reason your eyesight is that bad and you need a closer look.

So that's my biggest achievement so far for the holidays. Notice there's a new look to the online journal(I refuse to call it a 'blog' now, just because)? It's one of the members of A Perfect Circle, I got sick of staring at apologise with two p's. I always make at least ONE mistake with my layouts though, because God knows I'm imperfect. I've cut off the words at the side, again, as in the previous layout. So, if you can't guess what it says, the top sentence on the right is "A Perfect Circle." and the last one on the right says "You may say I'm a dreamer. But I'm not the only one." I was listening to APC's version of Imagine, and voila! Inspiration! The song's great, by the way. When I listen to it, I can just imagine the video for it. I mean, I get all these ideas flashing through my mind. Like of zombie like ladies walking to a beat, only these 'zombies' are like puppets. Ahh, the life of a wannabe director.

I'm hungry, I'm going out for dinner and I can't breath properly, so I better get my ass off this computer ASAP.

Feeling: Destructive
Listening to: Summer Stars by Taking Back Sunday

Today, I write to you after saying "I hate you" to the computer. Yeah, I talk to appliances that annoy me. And the computer keeps pissing me off when the IE gets frozen. It is so lame.

So, later today, at 1300 hours, my brother and sisters(I'll be calling them the siblings) will be taking their flight to New Zealand and leaving me to rot here in Brunei all alone, also making it seem as if I'm an only child.

It's my mum's birthday already and yesterday was my uncle's. We got to eat at Fratini's, Yayasan. There was A LOT of food. And I wasn't my usual self, because if I was, I'd have eaten more than I had. I didn't even order dessert, which I always do. And right now, I'm craving for two things: Prince and Vodka.

Only one of the two things craved are available to me now, that is, Vodka. So, I think I'll fulfill my need and get a glass. Morning, earthlings. But before I go, I'll leave you with some lyrics.

Summer Stars by Taking Back Sunday

Do you remember the time when you and I were fine?
Hiding under the apple tree; there was no one but you and me.
We would hide from passing cars and we would have the summer stars.

And we were better then than we'd ever been before.
You came back to me after walking out my door,
You would call me on the phone before you even got home.
Without me, you said you were all alone.

The cold wind that blows all the things I used to know;
How could it play so fast? Never thought you'd be part of my past.
Would I trade it all again to get you out of my head?

'Cause we were better then than we'd ever been before.
You came back to me after walking out my door,
You would call me on the phone before you even got home.
Without me, you said you were all alone.
Alone.
Without me by your side,
You said you were all alone.
Give me one more chance
to prove myself to you.
All the little things that I long to do.
...(when you run away)
Would you trade the course,
...(you said that you'd be)
So that I could hold you?
...(coming out my front porch)
Would it all go away?
...(just to see me)
And my heart is breaking.
Would you hear me, baby?
As the tears are longing
for what it used to be