Feeling: Dead

I hate British public transportation on Christmas Day.

P.S. Everything keeps going wrong.

Feeling: Dumb

Last night, I woke up with really cold feet. So, today, I decided it was time to turn the heater on. Now, my room is so warm, my stash of chocolates is melting. They taste better this way. :]

P.S. I hope some kind stranger will eventually see the good in me.

Why?

Broken Smile has not had a new layout in the longest time. Too bad I'm too busy to fix it now. :]

Feeling: Dead

When I decided to do a dissertation this year, I forgot how hard it is to write a 12,000 word essay.

I am doomed.

DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMED.

I'll let you know when it's okay to come out from hiding.

"I like it when it rains hard. It sounds like white noise everywhere, which is like silence but not empty." - The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time by Mark Haddon

Feeling: Sleepy
Listening to: Archer's Bows Are Broken by Brand New

I find it a terribly strange and sad phenomenon to realise that the people who were your friends at one point or another have stopped being friends with you. And nothing really caused it's termination, per se. It just ended.

Sometimes, I just think about the pity of a situation it is to find myself here and them there, but other times, the temptation to rekindle that friendship completely overwhelms me.

Only rarely does it ever return to its once splendid state. And this is the sad part.

Sleepy thoughts as I look through new pictures of old friends.

Also!

I need to find an interesting stranger with lots of photographs to become friends with and get to know so I can make a two-minute video about them in true stalker fashion.

Know someone who matches this description?

Call now on 0800-I-KNOW-A-STRANGER!

Feeling: Motivated

I understand how some of you may be concerned about my wellbeing. So, here is my timetable for this semester (although I'm not sure how it will help):

Monday:
09:00-10:50 | Writing with Light | Bute 0.53
17:00-19:00 | Spanish Language A | Centre for Lifelong Learning M1.05

Tuesday:
11:10-12:30 | About Photographs | Bute 0.35

Wednesday:
09:00-10:30 | About Photographs workshop | Bute 0.35

Thursday:
10:00-10:50 | Writing with Light seminar | Bute 0.53

Friday:
14:10-15:00 | Dissertation | Bute 1.20

And in the spirit of residing in Britain...

Cheers.

Feeling: Unaccomplished
Listening to: You To Me Are Everything by Real Thing

I started this list in June, but although it is already October, I would have probably still left this as a draft until January or something, if only I hadn't been reminded how much I miss the place people so affectionately call Penn.

So, this is what 6 months in the States has let me experience for the first time:

1. Taco Bell
   
2. Jambalaya
   
3. Greek food
   
4. Icee
   
5. In-N-Out
   
6. Cycling across the Golden Gate Bridge
   
7. Running through a fountain in the cold rain
   
8. Spending a week living on a couch in the basement of a frat house
   
9. Getting trapped in a stairwell of a hotel
   
10. Spending way too much time and money in one singular bar
    
11. Drinking illegally after drinking legally for a couple of years without going back in time
    
12. Getting high fived by a moving motorcyclist
    
13. Experiencing a snow storm
    
14. Seeing Scary Kids Scaring Kids live on their final tour
    
15. Seeing and meeting Copeland on their final tour, along with Person L, and I Can Make a Mess like Nobody's Business
    
16. Going to a frat party
    
17. Playing beer pong
    
18. Becoming a parent to five fish
    
19. Becoming a grandparent to many, many fish
    
20. Having a guest lecture by one of the creators of Spongebob Squarepants
    
21. Meeting Brian Graden, the man who helped produce South Park
    
22. Mountain Dew
    
23. Twizzlers
    
24. Having amazing professors, including Joan Garry
    
25. Going to Philadelphia, New York City, Boston, Montréal, San Francisco, Seattle and Washington, D.C.
    
26. Watching a gay parade
    
27. Developing a new appreciation and understanding about so many different kinds of people and ideas
    
28. Learning more about myself and who I am

You did good, America. Too bad that visa thing you gave me expired and I had to return to my own country.

Now you've got the best of me, come on and take the rest of me.