Feeling: Anxious
Listening to: Anarchy Camp by NOFX

So, what do ya know? That teeny tiny ten-day 'holiday' they gave us is over. And I haven't finished doing my homework. I did, however, finish two overdue Malay compositions. So, yay. Still got loads more overdue Biology stuff to do though. Poo. I can hardly say that this was a holiday, excluding the nights I didn't sleep and when I turned my nights into days and vice versa. It was a hol/vac, it just wasn't a holiday/vacation.

I went to my cousin's house on Friday for a non-occasion barbeque. There were so many little kids and I found myself often going up to watch them as they were just more entertaining than the 'grown-ups'. Yeah, it's kind of strange for me to admit that tiny hands trying to grab my specs and pull my hair and get my attention in any way possible was better than listening to other people's conversations of how they dislike this person or that. I made two little friends, both of whom wouldn't tell me their names, but maybe they couldn't, cause I didn't understand what they were saying. Haha. Anyway, that was fun.

As promised, I went to that drum solo thing at JP Saturday night. It was damn good, except for the little techno bit that, I'm sorry to say, ruined it. I don't like techno, plain and simple. No offense, but I don't take a liking to four minutes of the same nonsensical beat over and over.

I also went to the Empire for lunch Saturday, the food stunk though cause the chicken was yuck. After that, I went to the Mall and got that T-shirt I'd been eyeing for a whole month. It's a lovely green. Oh yeah, I fancy the colour green now, but not just any green. It has to be the shade of green Chucks come in, cause it's just lovely. :P I'm gonna try to find a picture since I'm too lazy to take one. That took me half an hour. And I still didn't find a picture. I found this instead:

:) I like it. So, you know, you can get it for me if you want. I've even got the link where you can order from. Here you go. Haha. Anyway, the shirt I have has a heart with a dagger through it and a banner that goes across the heart saying "Emily Rocks". Picture. Next time. Procrastinate. Me. Again. Like always. Disappointed. Don't be.

I've also got a new layout for this thingie. Yeah, I've got it. I just can't get my ass to do all that coding and unloading. I always plan on doing these things. I just get distracted. Take away the distractions if you don't like it. I can't help it! Looking for pictures of T-shirts just seems more enjoyable. I'm so lazy with coding, I stole mine from Envy's blog and changed the colours. But it's not like you haven't noticed. HAHAHA. I'm a sad, sad little girl.

This belt is cool too. :) So many things are cool, yet so many other things are strange. And you know what, some of the strange things aren't even different things from the cool things.

You know what I need? I need plaid material. I need to patch up my pants. No, really. There are holes. Hehe. Big ones here and there. I could use other materials and/or patterns, and I have looked, but I haven't found one as appealing as plaid would look. I found my sister's plaid skirt just now, and I put it in place just to see how it would look, and I was tempted to cut it up right then. I even mesaured it to see if it would fit over two holes. And it will! But... yeah. It would look so vintage. Sweet. *drools. Awh, yeah, I'm so sick, I drool when I think of pants.

I like the word 'and'. It can fill in anything. :) Try it. And try it. And try and it. And try and it and. Yeah. That's hot. And. Get with it, it's the fashion. Come, little sheepies, follow the crowd! And chant with me "Must blend in. Must not stand out. Must be like the rest. Must say and." As you can tell, I'm bored. I don't know what I'm going to do when I go offline. All this typing has be so high. Feels like I'm on speed. Haha. Yeah. Ok.

Feeling: Like, oh my God, ubertastic
Listening to: On My Own by The Used

Hi all you sick little people. I've got a few things I've been itching to tell you, but with the internet at my house being down for some unknown reason, I had to hold it all in memory until now. Lets just pray I remember it all. And if I don't, screw you.

Okay. It's already the sixth day of the ten-day first term holiday we were given, and umm.. I'm gonna have to go back to two days before the last day of school, at least I think that's when it happened. Yeah, Far hit me and I started spitting out blood at school. It was so cool. Haha. All the blood, so red. Nothing serious happened though, she cut my gum. Well, actually, it was my fault for putting a tube of manila card to my mouth, you know, like a speaker. So she knocked it, and it made an inch cut across my gum. It hurt real bad that day, I couldn't bite into thing. Hehe. And all I could think about was the fact that I'd have to eat grandmother food. All that porridge and soup and stuff. Eek. The pain didn't last for more than one day though, so I didn't have to go through with the granny food. Lucky me. I just had a one-inch mark/cut across my gum. Woohoo. It's gone now, by the way.

Look what you've made me do, I forgot what else I did. And as I promised, screw you. :) All of you! Screw the world, you evil hitmen! Bwahahaha. I just like saying that, sorry.

Saturday I went to watch Hostage at Cineplex, or as everyone inappropriately knows it as, the Mall. I went with my sister and some other people, and we were 15 minutes late. But the movie was still awesome even though I missed the first quarter of it. Lots of blood and fire and guns and knives and... yeah. I was supposed to see Prince that night, but the movie finished late. Poo.

Haven't really done anything interesting since then. I was in a sulk after I couldn't see Prince. Hehe. You all know how immature and childish I can be. If you see me, kick me, please. I'll understand, don't worry.

This Saturday, there's a drummer contest at Jerudong Park, I'm gonna go see that. Cause you know how I get entranced with the way drummers play. It's really cool and coordinated.

Oh yeah, one thing I really wanted to say was that I finished writing ALL the lyrics to Silverstein's Smashed Into Pieces onto my lyric jeans, so that's another cool thing, not that you care. I'm bored so I'm gonna let you have a look. At the lyrics, not that pants.

Never again. I’ll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine. Maybe when you find out that I’m dead, you’ll realize what you did to me. And if my lungs still let me breathe, would you be there for me? If I can make myself believe, I’ll give you back what you took away. No, I won’t let it go. Douse myself in gasoline. So don’t save me when you come into the fire. I’d rather die than have to see your smile. You made me swear. I can’t sleep. Realize all these things that you took from me. Smash my heart into dust. Suffocate my mind. Tear at me from inside. Smash apart what you created. How can I ever stop you from crushing my soul? It was yours to begin with.

I'm supposed to have some pictures for you. Next time, maybe. I'm a procrastinator, you know that. ;) Cheers. My brother's aching to use the computer. XOX.

Feeling: Lonely
Listening to: Mungkin Nanti by Peterpan

Iiiiiit's WOMENS' DAY! Hahaha. I just seriously wanted to do that. So, to all women, :) it's your day, be happy. Yeah, lame. I know I am, don't worry.

I told you this song was stuck in my head. I just love it for some reason. Hwahwahwa. There's this one verse I like the most, mainly because it's the only verse I caught - "Rasa yang kutinggal mati", which, when using my Malay translates to "The feelings I have left are dead/dying". Cool, ya?

Moving on... Time's going by slowing this year. I like it. Maybe it's got something to do with the Earth's rotation being disturbed by the tsunami. But yeah, it's nice not having everything rush passed me. Sometimes without me even knowing it.

We had a fire drill today at school. Hehe. That stupid noise they call the fire alarm is so weird. :) By the way, the changed the bell for the afternoon classes. So, instead of it being that annoying London-like bell, we get to listen to a sound that's like the tune ice cream trucks play. HAHAHA.

Another kid came up to me and ran off again today. Kids are so weird these days. Haha. Actually, I think he said something before disappearing. :P Hmm. Speaking of kids, in our school canteen, there are these sinks. No, wait. It's just one big sink with about 5 taps. But under the sink there's nothing, so it's just space. Anyway, I was by this sink with extra taps one day, talking to Far when water squirted through the bottem of the sink. We went around to the back of it, and there were these little Primary 2 or 1 boys squirming around saying "It was him! It was him!" Far was gonna talk to them, when they squirted her again(with a.. um.. squirting device). Haha. It was funny. I saw the same kid later in the week, he waved at me, so I said "Hey, it's the squirt boy." to Far. Because, well, that's what I do. Yeap, then he bowed to her, and it was just so cute. Hehe. He was going back to class though, so he had to go. I found out his name is Afiq though, and I'm not sure about the spelling.

Oh yeah, my piano theory exam went okay. I don't think I made any mistakes, but I'm always wrong. Hehe. I got lots of homework to catch up on. So, I'm gonna go put on the Used, but Mungkin Nanti is still gonna be stuck in my head. Rasa yang kutinggal mati. ;)

Butttttt. I've got something for you. I think you can tell where I got the first part from. Hyuck. And you might need to censor one word out, if you're worried about your eyes getting choked.


All the feelings I have left
Are either dead or are dying.
And all I can do is watch myself bleed
Someone else's blood.
It pains me to realize
I'm just like the rest of them.
I'm emotionless and empty-hearted.
I've always been but I never knew.
My heart tries to beat constantly,
But my veins are so dry, they've crenated.
I can't taste the cherry lips
When our tongues meet anymore.
It's gone and it happened so fast.
I'm falling too slowly to notice.
But I know, when I hit the ground
Every bone in my crippled body will break.
You'll smile and the world will shine
Because this globe is full of sadistic bastards.
I know you love it when I cry.
So, come closer, or you'll never hear my whimpers.
I'm chewing your lungs
So you'll never breathe again.
And I'm sticking needles in your eyes
So you'll never lie.
It sucks my life away to realize it,
But I'm just like the rest of them.
Oh, yes. I'm just like you.

Okay. That's it. I got homework to do. Good night, yo.

Feeling: Time-limited
Listening to: My Only Cure by Recover

Greetings.

I'd just like to add a little bit to the last entry I typed which was ages ago. "Every girl was in an orange outfit with a green tudong. So we couldn't recognize each other. We had to look at everyone's feet to identify people. It was funny. I guess." And that's it.

I'm getting lazier and lazier. Woo. When was the last time I OJed?

Let's start from last Saturday. I went to JP, and I watched some of the bands play. Ok, I only saw one band play, and the clowns doing whatever it was they were doing because Prince wanted to go somewhere else. Anyway, this one band had a self-composed song that I like. I know the name of the song is 'Free Yourself' and I know that the bassist's name was G-Boy. So, yeah. I wonder if anyone knows what band this is. Help me, if you can. :D That was LAST Saturday. February 26. Alright. Thanks.

On the following Monday I went to the Empire to watch Racing Stripes. Me and my stupid mind thought it was an animation. HAHAHA. It wasn't. But yeah, it was funny. Had the most abrupt ending though. Hmm. On Tuesday I went back to the Empire, cause... I was supposed to watch White Noise. But we were running late, so we didn't. We walked around instead. The Pantai Restaurant was 'closed for private function' and the red carpet was rolled out. Army people were there too. Hehe.

I don't know why I'm telling you(whoever YOU is) what I did throughout the week. I guess I really am a sad little lonely girl. Hyuk hyuk.

Random thought: GOD! These mosquito bites are annoying me! They're so god damned itchy. EEEEEEEE.

Last night I went to Prince's friends house for this thing. His friend's band was playing. I was captivated by the drummer's drumming. Haha. It's actually kind of interesting. You try it. Stare at the way drummers drum. It's cool. I mean, if the drummer is good enough though. :) Yeah. They played a bunch of songs, one of them being Mungkin Nanti. That song is so stuck in my head. I like Peterpan, the band, yo. Oh yeah, and Azri was dressed the same way as me. Eep. O.o He pointed that out to Prince. :P

Yup, yup. Umm. I had my Biology test on Tuesday, I didn't get the bestest of results. I only got 61%. Bleeeeeep! And my Add Maths test was yesterday. It was so tooting hard. :( &@$%()_!%%^%. I think I need tuition or something. Bah.

I was so confused yesterday night. Or this morning, to be exact. I was so blur. I wasn't sure what I did or didn't do. Haha. Oh yeah, and I had a hallucination. At the Saturday night thing. I imagined someone throwing a cushion at me. So I closed my eyes real tight, you know, like you do when you don't want something to hit you. And yeah, there was no cushion. It was weird. I'm going crazy. Or maybe I just want to be.

Friday I had an English essay writing competition to go to. It didn't go very well. The title was so weird and factful. 'Harnessing science and Info-Communication Technology for all - are we there yet?'. I have no idea. So I wrote what I could, be it weird and childish and handed it in 5 minutes before time was up. The teacher in charge kept making me nervous by saying I've got to hurry up. :( Poo.

Hey, my sister just came home. Oh, wait. No she didn't.

Please note that what I just typed is all in random order. As you see, I jumped from Saturday to Tuesday to Saturday again and then to Friday. I've no time to bother to care. Oh, yeah, I fucking rock.

I'm gonna sod off now. Piss out(And I do realize I spelt it 'piss' and not 'peace'). ;)

This is one long and useless entry. But I don't care, I type and you read. Mwahah.