Feeling: Motivated

I understand how some of you may be concerned about my wellbeing. So, here is my timetable for this semester (although I'm not sure how it will help):

Monday:
09:00-10:50 | Writing with Light | Bute 0.53
17:00-19:00 | Spanish Language A | Centre for Lifelong Learning M1.05

Tuesday:
11:10-12:30 | About Photographs | Bute 0.35

Wednesday:
09:00-10:30 | About Photographs workshop | Bute 0.35

Thursday:
10:00-10:50 | Writing with Light seminar | Bute 0.53

Friday:
14:10-15:00 | Dissertation | Bute 1.20

And in the spirit of residing in Britain...

Cheers.

Feeling: Unaccomplished
Listening to: You To Me Are Everything by Real Thing

I started this list in June, but although it is already October, I would have probably still left this as a draft until January or something, if only I hadn't been reminded how much I miss the place people so affectionately call Penn.

So, this is what 6 months in the States has let me experience for the first time:

1. Taco Bell
   
2. Jambalaya
   
3. Greek food
   
4. Icee
   
5. In-N-Out
   
6. Cycling across the Golden Gate Bridge
   
7. Running through a fountain in the cold rain
   
8. Spending a week living on a couch in the basement of a frat house
   
9. Getting trapped in a stairwell of a hotel
   
10. Spending way too much time and money in one singular bar
    
11. Drinking illegally after drinking legally for a couple of years without going back in time
    
12. Getting high fived by a moving motorcyclist
    
13. Experiencing a snow storm
    
14. Seeing Scary Kids Scaring Kids live on their final tour
    
15. Seeing and meeting Copeland on their final tour, along with Person L, and I Can Make a Mess like Nobody's Business
    
16. Going to a frat party
    
17. Playing beer pong
    
18. Becoming a parent to five fish
    
19. Becoming a grandparent to many, many fish
    
20. Having a guest lecture by one of the creators of Spongebob Squarepants
    
21. Meeting Brian Graden, the man who helped produce South Park
    
22. Mountain Dew
    
23. Twizzlers
    
24. Having amazing professors, including Joan Garry
    
25. Going to Philadelphia, New York City, Boston, Montréal, San Francisco, Seattle and Washington, D.C.
    
26. Watching a gay parade
    
27. Developing a new appreciation and understanding about so many different kinds of people and ideas
    
28. Learning more about myself and who I am

You did good, America. Too bad that visa thing you gave me expired and I had to return to my own country.

Now you've got the best of me, come on and take the rest of me.

Feeling: Confused
Listening to: Set The Fire To The Third Bar by Snow Patrol

I can't believe how long it's been since I last posted. :D

I've been very busy, and amongst all the hustle and bustle, I somehow ended up back in DA YOU KAY (Although I am now in the land of shamrocks and leprechauns). So, like, I'll give you that list I promised... Soon. Really. I will.

But other than that, this song really gets to me for some reason. Could be the gentle harmony of all the instruments and vocals coming together, or maybe it is slowly hypnotising me so that I do its bidding. You should listen to it if you feel like calming your heart down or just taking a deep breath.

Miles from where you are. I lay down on the cold ground, and I, I pray that something picks me up and sets me down in your warm arms.

Feeling: Broken

It was so tiny. No bigger than my hand.

I shall call you January.

January, you were too eager, and this world is awfully cold.

Mr. January.

♥

Feeling: Deserted

I am homeless yet again, but this time, there are no couches or basements or frat houses to take pity on me. Whatever shall I do? D:

Feeling: Joyful
Listening to: Revolution by The Beatles

The other night, I couldn't sleep after lying in bed for an hour, trying to. So, I wrote a story about a Mr. Dinosaur, though I think I'm going to rename him Mr. Elephant because my brain just wants to. Perhaps one day, you too shall know of his adventures, but for today, I am wearing a shoelace in my hair because I couldn't find my headband this morning.

You say you want a revolution. Well, you know, we all want to change the world. You tell me that it's evolution. Well, you know, we all want to change the world. But when you talk about destruction, don't you know that you can count me out.

Where the fuck is that fine line between self-pity and awareness?

My left eye has been twitching all day. I think it is trying to escape and projectile itself out of the socket in my skull. Should be interesting.

But I don't know what is going to happen.

Life. Oh, life.

What is wrong with language today? What does the greatest person of all time think? Does it even matter? Who knows?

Find out now by going to the following link:

I mean, wait, there it was - hidden suspiciously well in the previous sentence.

Halll, raiiiiiyeet.

Feeling: Engaged

The current diagnosis is paranoid schizophrenia, and I take pride in knowing I can spell that correctly without looking it up.

"Life's greatest comfort is being able to look over your shoulder and see people worse off, waiting in line behind you." - Rant by Chuck Palahniuk

Less than 5 minutes remaining in my teenage life, according to GMT +8. But if I were counting from the time zone in which I was born, my teenage years would already be over.

I shall now curl up and die before my soul gets sucked away from me completely. :]

Someone on TV just said "Amy likes to have a good time wherever she goes," but doesn't everyone? Who likes to have a bad time? And even if they liked having a bad time, wouldn't they be having a good time if they had a bad time?

Oh, my God, I am so irritable right now.

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. *Bites off chicken head.

Feeling: Shocked
Listening to: First Day Of My Life by Bright Eyes

Bright Eyes are on the radio! It is amazing.

It's been a while since I last said something about my loving grandmother, and during the short time I've been back in Brunei, she's ordered me, on several accounts, to leave the house, all while her stick was shoved dangerously close to my face. Tonight, though, she threw her stick at me, and it would appear she is now extra determined to get me out.

I don't know why she hates me so much.

"It is the very nature of this world that all things are devoured and time is a mouth as bloody as any other." - The Vampire Armand by Anne Rice

Feeling: Obsessed
Listening to: Love Song for a Vampire by Annie Lennox

A lot has happened since my last post, but I'll tell you one thing for sure - I'm now safely in the self-proclaimed Abode of Peace.

I was going to make a list of all the things the United States allowed me to experience, and maybe I'll actually do it, but for now, let me talk about my rekindled obsession with unusual but cool piercings, and how I have a strange anxiety making me want to get them.

So... uhh.

Once, I had the rarest rose that ever deemed to bloom. Cruel winter chilled the bud and stole my flower too soon. Oh, loneliness. Oh, hopelessness.

Feeling: Groovy

fem·i·nism  [fem-uh-niz-uhm]
–noun

1. the doctrine advocating social, political, and all other rights of women equal to those of men.

I am so sick of all the negative connotations people glue to feminism. Feminism is about equality. Why do you people make it seem so wrong to want equality?! If I haven't misjudged the fundamentals of a democratic society, everyone should be a feminist. Now, pull your head out of your ass, and stop portraying feminism as a female supremacy cult!

P.S. I miss my mum.

Days remaining (a): 1
Days remaining (b): 1
Days remaining (c): 2

(a) History of Old Media essay
(b) History of Old Media project
(c) Media Activism and Social Change essay

Feeling: Kaplonk

My arm feels weird. I think it's going to fall off.

*Sighs. The price I pay for immunity to Insert random disease here.

Sleepy, sleepy. Hehehehehegehegehe. *Snores.

Days remaining (a): 3
Days remaining (b): 4
Days remaining (c): 4
Days remaining (d): 8
Days remaining (e): 8
Days remaining (f): 9

(a) Mass Media and Society exam
(b) Communication and Persuasion essay
(c) Communication and Persuasion presentation
(d) History of Old Media essay
(e) History of Old Media project
(f) Media Activism and Social Change essay

Feeling: Thoughtful

Is there any point in trying to be good?

Can you actually "be the change you want to see in the world"?

Is there nothing more you can do than think about yourself?

The hope I have for everything just keeps making me seem delusional.

And maybe I am.

The theory of congeniality tells me there is no point having a standing until it is challenged and you can fight for it.

But maybe some things shouldn't be fought for.

You are a small, tiny person, Sue-Anne. And the world is too messy and big. Get your head back on your shoulders where it belongs.

Days remaining (a): 4
Days remaining (b): 5
Days remaining (c): 5
Days remaining (d): 9
Days remaining (e): 9
Days remaining (f): 10

(a) Mass Media and Society exam
(b) Communication and Persuasion essay
(c) Communication and Persuasion presentation
(d) History of Old Media essay
(e) History of Old Media project
(f) Media Activism and Social Change essay