Feeling: Lazy
Listening to: Seventy Times Seven by Brand New

Back in school, they never taught us what we needed to know. Like how to deal with despair or someone breaking your heart.

I should be writing my World Literature essay that was due on Thursday, the 19th, but lets face it: I'M LAZY. So, I decided to pay this little online journal of mine a visit, and let all Hell loose on me when I realize I really should have written this essay tonight. Hello, hi. How's everyone doing? Great.

I've been wanting to say this for a while now, and I think it's about time I let it out. Thanks to this, I can see the strange things people type in to get to Broken Smile and fortunately for my humour, there were two search engine queries that caught my attention in the past week. They made me laugh, so I hope they make you laugh, too.

1. Palir+brunei
   
2. "Fat friendly" amusement parks

Hehehe. :] Palir means penis.

I think I'm turning into a mixed breed of werewolf and vampire. My teeth are really sharp; they're starting to cut the inside of my cheek. It would also explain why I've been waking up outside covered in someone else's blood everyday. Hmm.

Aaaaaaaaaand good night.

Feeling: Worried
Listening to: Eulogies And Epitaphs by I Am Ghost

Remember when I had Acute Urticaria? I'm getting it again. :[

The liars and the vampires will break these bloody chains.

Feeling: Depressed
Listening to: Coffee by Copeland

I don't know what's wrong with me.

Anyway, I actually forgot what I was going to say. Good bye.

Feeling: Tired
Listening to: Lovers And Liars by Matchbook Romance

Let's cut out all depression for a while and talk about the trip to KK.

It wasn't so bad. It actually brought people closer together; formed and strengthed relationships that either did or did not exist before this specific event, and in rare cases, we were brought face to face with the reasons why we don't exactly like certain people, but even that helped these relationships brighten, and I guess that's all that matters in the end.

That was a long sentence.

Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me.

And that just made it ten times worse. :[ And it hurts; it really does.

I don't understand.

I don't deal with endings very well. So, I guess it makes perfect sense for that to be the most painful evening of my life.

♥

Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?

Feeling: Excited
Listening to: Beyond The Hourglass by I Am Ghost

Over the past three days or so, I've been acquanted with I Am Ghost, and I'm pleased to announce that they are a fucking amazing band. And this song is driving me crazy. It's so cool, I can't help but play it over and over again. It's just an overall awesome song. All their songs are good because the band members are terrific at what they do, but this song connected with me more than the others for some reason. You just can't help sing along to the chorus and feel the tension in the guitar and violin solos, as if it was written for you. Or maybe that's just me and the creepy relationships I form with songs.

Save us from all the evil that we do; tonight we're ghosts. I've fallen down, but never give up. Create what was left behind - it was you.

I'll be in KK for six days starting Thursday and I don't know how to feel about it. First, I was excited, but then I was indifferent, and then I felt it was going to be disappointing, and now my feelings fluctuate between all three. :] And I don't know if I'll be bringing my laptop 'cause of reasons I was going to explain but then decided not to because of laziness. :]

The other day, Randa Abdel-Fattah, lawyer and writer of Does My Head Look Big In This? and Ten Things I Hate About Me, came to school. I found it interesting 'cause you know how I want to write as a profession, right? Well, I started to feel incapable and handicapped. Hahah. Oh, God. What am I going to do?

You Are An ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy beauty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

What's Your Personality Type?

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are balanced, peaceful, and sincere. You're the type of person who goes along to get along. And you're definitely afraid of rocking the boat. Underneath it all, you fear your world falling apart. You'll put up with a situation that you don't like in fear of changing it. Disruptive and forceful people intimidate you - and sometimes exploit you.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?