Lady Luck by The Lyndsay Diaries

If lady luck is on my side,
She will be with me tonight.
I barely made this month's rent.
Save a lucky hand of cards,
I'll think of something next month.
Four flights down to the street,
To a place we agreed to meet.
And she's there waiting so very patiently.
Tonight to celebrate love,
Tonight for sure.
So I try to live every second of it.
So as not to forget how I,
How I felt.
I always could make you laugh,
And I found comfort in that.
Old stereos set fire to our ears,
Inspired us to put down our nervousness,
And forget our fears.
I've got a bottle full of rum.
We won't stop until we're done,
And we forget you're leaving.
Now, you're getting on a plane.
You'll arrive in Spain,
Such a foreign place,
Where they speak in such a foreign tongue.
It's all foreign to me.
Tonight to say goodbye,
Tonight for sure.
So I try to take a picture with my mind,
So as not to forget how beautiful,
How beautiful you are.

Feeling: Breathless
Listening to: Hand Of Blood by Bullet For My Valentine

3 more days to go.

My dad is being strange.

I don't know if I want to go to school tomorrow. Haha. Seems so useless. And I'm lazy. And I just don't want to.

Weird as it is, I've been going back to NZ for so many years, and for times longer than this, but now it feels wrong. Maybe it's cause my sister isn't going, she's my thing to lean on, so yeahh. :) I miss NZ though.

Speaking of my sister, she's in Cambodia. Cause she's cool. Hee. The company she works for paid for everything, the ticket, meals, accomodation. So, that's just cool. She's come back on Friday, the day before I leave.

Tomorrow is the day after the day before the next day. I don't know what that means. I can't figure it out. :(

And Wake Me Up When September Ends is the ultimate car crash song. Play it in the car when you're driving really fast, and you'll see why. It's like everything goes in slow motion.

And the bestest news ever is that the aircon in my room got fixed today. Yay. I can sleep with blankets again.

Feeling: Happy
Listening to: Returning The Smile You Have Had From The Start by Emery

9 more days till I leave. :)

I don't think I was drunk, but then, I wouldn't have done the things I did if I wasn't drunk, so I don't know. I had a little Vodka with VeGood, cause I've never tried that before, and as usual, after drinking, I was sleepy and my vision blurred. Hahaha. Anyway, about this 'drunk' business. I got extremely upset, as was mentioned, and I cried for 2 hours straight. I got so uncontrollable I called him up and after hanging up, I called him again because I couldn't stand it. I was going crazy and pulling my hair. HAHA. It's kind of funny to think about. But yah, I think this undue emotion was the cause of me getting Acute Urticaria. I was infested with itchy red marks. But they're gone now. They disappeared after a few hours.

The AU was worst on Tuesday, so I didn't go to school. And I spent the night at Sheraton cause my mum had some party there, and I asked Prince to come, and we hung out for a bit. :D

So I'm not going to school until the 1st December, cause that's when I can get my report card and I don't want to wake up at 6 to go to school for nothing.

I woke up with a fever this morning, but now it's better cause I had Nurofen.

That's all. I don't know why you'd want to know about my sicknesses, but whatever. Good bye.

Feeling: like a crybaby

Everything is sucky.

Jas is leaving for good on the 9th of December, we can't go out to cheer ourselves up without Far, who can't go because of reasons.

I received a saddening e-mail so I've been crying and now my eyes are all tiny, my nose is red and my voice is funny.

I'm a little drunk.

I have a fever. I went to school, and I had a tummyache all day.

And I'm scared as hell.

The only good thing about today is I ate a Zinger burger for lunch/breakfast and I finished Blood and Gold.

I want to die.

Feeling: Seperated
Listening to: Miligram Smile by From Autumn To Ashes

I died. I died a thousand times. If I die any more, I'll lose count. You're so good at killing me. And yet, I can't stop loving you.

At last I was willing to say no more. I was growing angry. I felt wronged and I couldn't understand her. Her silence hurt me more and more, and I knew that she could see this in my face.

That was an extract from Blood and Gold, a book I am still reading because I suck. But yah, that bit caught my attention, and if you change all the 'she's and 'her's to 'him's and 'his', then you'd see why.

I have a tummyache. :(

And hey! I'm back from Survivor Island/Pulau Tiga, and if you don't know what that is, which I'm guessing you don't, it's the island where the show Survivor was filmed.

The island was so homey, I just felt so at home there. I even made a few friends whom I stayed up till 1AM singing karaoke and playing pool with. Namely Jess, Emma, Max, Mat, Julius and some other people, so hey, hello. And they had these mud pools there, and everyone went in them and came out covered in mud head-to-toe, it was so cool. And for the first time ever, I actually had the courage to touch a snake, I even had it around my neck. I'll post pictures next time. All in all, those 3 nights on the island were so much fun with it's games and swimming in the ocean(which I don't like, by the way, but for some reason, I enjoyed on this island) and everything, and I kind of miss it now. I was so sad to leave. Heee.

I've been playing the Sims 2 since my return to Brunei. :) My Sims are called Frankie, Sky and Gerard Micheals. HAHAHA. I'm so cool.

I also have half-tans all over my body. Part of the reason is cause I went to play volleyball with friends yesterday. And I'm sunburnt.

I miss you, bum.